This journal is kind of rambling and probably not that interesting. Just some thoughts about moving that I wanted to get out of my head. Feel free to just look at this picture instead of reading it if you would prefer to be entertained:
So Matt and I have been thinking about moving out of Marin for quite a while. Originally we were planning to move to SF, mostly at my urging. Matt's never lived there and I miss it a lot. I love city life and I really miss being able to wander through the different neighborhoods, hop on a bus or train, get drunk and take a cab home, whatever. Anyone who's been to San Francisco probably can understand why I would want to live there.
But at the same time, I get sort of panicky and anxious every time I think about trying to find a house and a job in SF. I'm sort of stuck in a situation where I'm pretty sure the only way I'll get a bar job is by just hanging out at a ton of bars, but I can't really do that unless we live in SF, but we can't move to SF unless I have a job because my current job doesn't pay anywhere near enough to live in the city.
On top of that a lot of my priorities have changed. I want a place with a yard for my dogs, I want enough room for a breadmaker and a sewing machine, and I don't want us to sweat over the rent every month. So I think we're going to move to Alameda. It's one of the few places in the Bay Area that is still inexpensive to live without being crime-ridden or totally soulless. It's suburban/small town, but in more of a cute, throwback way than an outlet mall way.
It does make me a little sad that I won't be just down the street from the Knockout or Pops, and that I won't be able to walk the dogs to Dolores Park on a sunny day. I can hear some of my city friends telling me I'm settling for what I can live with instead of holding out for what I really want, and in some ways that's true. At one point I felt like I couldn't bear to not move back to the city, that I would just implode without it. But I don't feel that way anymore. I like being domestic, and for partying to be once a week instead of every night. Maybe some day if we have lots of money we can have the lifestyle we want in San Francisco but right now that's not possible. But I am happy with our plans.
So Matt and I have been thinking about moving out of Marin for quite a while. Originally we were planning to move to SF, mostly at my urging. Matt's never lived there and I miss it a lot. I love city life and I really miss being able to wander through the different neighborhoods, hop on a bus or train, get drunk and take a cab home, whatever. Anyone who's been to San Francisco probably can understand why I would want to live there.
But at the same time, I get sort of panicky and anxious every time I think about trying to find a house and a job in SF. I'm sort of stuck in a situation where I'm pretty sure the only way I'll get a bar job is by just hanging out at a ton of bars, but I can't really do that unless we live in SF, but we can't move to SF unless I have a job because my current job doesn't pay anywhere near enough to live in the city.
On top of that a lot of my priorities have changed. I want a place with a yard for my dogs, I want enough room for a breadmaker and a sewing machine, and I don't want us to sweat over the rent every month. So I think we're going to move to Alameda. It's one of the few places in the Bay Area that is still inexpensive to live without being crime-ridden or totally soulless. It's suburban/small town, but in more of a cute, throwback way than an outlet mall way.
It does make me a little sad that I won't be just down the street from the Knockout or Pops, and that I won't be able to walk the dogs to Dolores Park on a sunny day. I can hear some of my city friends telling me I'm settling for what I can live with instead of holding out for what I really want, and in some ways that's true. At one point I felt like I couldn't bear to not move back to the city, that I would just implode without it. But I don't feel that way anymore. I like being domestic, and for partying to be once a week instead of every night. Maybe some day if we have lots of money we can have the lifestyle we want in San Francisco but right now that's not possible. But I am happy with our plans.
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coco:
Alameda is great! And then we'll be closer to each other. 
lalou:
Ha!!!!!!! That owl is my win for the day!!