Presidents of the United States of America tonight at the Independent in SF!!! Obviously Shannon can't go, so I gave her ticket to her best friend Kiki. A cool kid in her own right, and she actually likes the band. 
I started looking at apts in Shannon's area for us to move into on Craig's List. Lots of great choices close to her Grandma's, so...
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I started looking at apts in Shannon's area for us to move into on Craig's List. Lots of great choices close to her Grandma's, so...
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This is Shannon's last week in rehab. Next Sunday we get to take her home. I wish that meant MY home, but as yet do not yet co-habitate, alas... But at least I'll get to see her, and talk for more than 10 minutes. IN PRIVATE, not with a line of others waiting behind her at the pay phone.
I really hope that the intimacy...
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I really hope that the intimacy...
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rin:
it' IS a dark crystal tattoo!
1kiss_of_life:
Hahaha, I knew it was a lady bug.
Well, somehow I KNEW you were going to run with the hereditary part. So there.
Either way you define touched, it still isn't correct. I don't believe for a moment that you have not been held, caressed, embraced or fondled in almost a month. Although, solo I do believe.
Well, somehow I KNEW you were going to run with the hereditary part. So there.
Either way you define touched, it still isn't correct. I don't believe for a moment that you have not been held, caressed, embraced or fondled in almost a month. Although, solo I do believe.
Ahhh! The home page looks all weird! Make it go back, make go back!
1kiss_of_life:
You know how you read something and ... 
.... I'm sorry. You know I am. But ... but it reminded me.
.... I'm sorry. You know I am. But ... but it reminded me.
1kiss_of_life:
Well yeah, but only when dad lets you drive slow on the driveway. 
I just got off the phone with my girl. God I miss her so much...
The issue I've been struggling with is ironing itself out, and close to a beneficial resolution. Or at least, a path to resolution. Which is good, as I don't want to fuck up what we have. She means the world to me, and I know I'm getting so edgy and...
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The issue I've been struggling with is ironing itself out, and close to a beneficial resolution. Or at least, a path to resolution. Which is good, as I don't want to fuck up what we have. She means the world to me, and I know I'm getting so edgy and...
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1kiss_of_life:
I'm not saying it is "him" the actor. I don't know who this phantom is. So he's not unattainable. He's out there. I just don't know him yet. I'll know him when ... when I know him. Get it. There's a castle in Peoria IL. I think he lives in a dungeon in the castle. 
So he exists ... I imagine. Course if it is the actor, and I met him to find it was him ... well let's just say I'd not complain. heh.
And it's not crazy, it's passion. There's a difference.
There's a castle in Peoria IL. I think he lives in a dungeon in the castle. So he exists ... I imagine. Course if it is the actor, and I met him to find it was him ... well let's just say I'd not complain. heh.
And it's not crazy, it's passion. There's a difference.
1kiss_of_life:
Oh and Sherlock. The clues on the page were "Embrace the silence" and "plum-blossom."
I have heard the language of apocalypse and now I shall embrace the silence. ~ Delirium, Going Inside
She decides to make a list of the things that make her happy. She writes 'plum-blossom' at the top of a piece of paper. Then she stares at the paper, unable to think of anything else. Eventually it begins to get dark. ~ Despair, 15 Portraits of Despair
See what I mean about the weird things that happen to me? I try to think of happy things, I draw a blank and the light goes out.
The profile pic was Tempus Frangit. A spaceship that attempted a hyperspace drive. Although it was representative of "time breaks" or "time shatters," the inscription on
Delirium's sundial.
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I have heard the language of apocalypse and now I shall embrace the silence. ~ Delirium, Going Inside
She decides to make a list of the things that make her happy. She writes 'plum-blossom' at the top of a piece of paper. Then she stares at the paper, unable to think of anything else. Eventually it begins to get dark. ~ Despair, 15 Portraits of Despair
See what I mean about the weird things that happen to me? I try to think of happy things, I draw a blank and the light goes out.
The profile pic was Tempus Frangit. A spaceship that attempted a hyperspace drive. Although it was representative of "time breaks" or "time shatters," the inscription on
Delirium's sundial.
[Edited on Sep 11, 2005 1:54AM]
Taking good news when it comes:
I got home from the store today and found 3 dead wasps in the trap I put up 2 weeks ago! Finally, I was starting to think it didn't work on the kind of wasps I had. Whatever takes their numbers down is good for me. Fuckin' wasps!
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I got home from the store today and found 3 dead wasps in the trap I put up 2 weeks ago! Finally, I was starting to think it didn't work on the kind of wasps I had. Whatever takes their numbers down is good for me. Fuckin' wasps!
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guitargeek:
I'm known for killing wasps with my bare hands. Give me a good sturdy flyswatter and it's wasp armageddon...
squidbizkit:
wasps.
My trip to the range was just embarrassing. I was shooting next to a couple of cool guys in the military. One just got back from his THIRD tour in Iraq! He looked 10 years younger than me, and probably was. This dude was a goddammed eagle eye. Put everybody around to shame. I wasn't going to try any trick shots next to this guy....
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1kiss_of_life:
Thanks for the hug. Actually, it crossed my mind about those people. People who'd run onto a freeway to rescue something silly, like a turtle. Or run into traffic for a min pin. jeesh, those people are insane. Not us though. 
Ok, going out to get more stuff to send down. And here's a funny. I had my credit card out and put it somewhere. I can't find it. I never do that, seriously. Then I thought, some non-existant phantom has hidden my credit card. And why!?! So I can't overdo it!?! Well, that's crazy because I wouldn't do that! Oh well, I'll write a check. I have a little $ there. Oh shiiiit. *looks for checkbook.* Ok, it's here.
Or run into traffic for a min pin. jeesh, those people are insane. Not us though.
Ok, going out to get more stuff to send down. And here's a funny. I had my credit card out and put it somewhere. I can't find it. I never do that, seriously. Then I thought, some non-existant phantom has hidden my credit card. And why!?! So I can't overdo it!?! Well, that's crazy because I wouldn't do that!
Oh well, I'll write a check. I have a little $ there. Oh shiiiit. *looks for checkbook.* Ok, it's here.
1kiss_of_life:
heh. I just went back to my page. I noticed what I had put so long ago as my occupation. Oh well, at least I know what I do.
Day 4 of 28 days.
I'll spare you the neurotic ramblings... I just need a hug. Tomorrow's Al-Anon meeting will help. I hope.
I'll spare you the neurotic ramblings... I just need a hug. Tomorrow's Al-Anon meeting will help. I hope.
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1kiss_of_life:
ok, hold on HUH? "Al-Anon meeting will help. I hope"
What? what does that mean? why are you thinking it won't help? you did before. what happened? and why?
and if you could hear me ^^^ talking, ^^^ that is me talking. just talking and not talking loudly. just so ya know.
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What? what does that mean? why are you thinking it won't help? you did before. what happened? and why?
and if you could hear me ^^^ talking, ^^^ that is me talking. just talking and not talking loudly. just so ya know.
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1kiss_of_life:
Yes. The meetings will help.
About worrying, nightmares. Issues and coping. And the past. Mixed into a relationship.
I have no words for that. Nuthin' Well, except to say that the way I handle it, is to not date. I stopped that a long time ago. Had to. Environmental hazards. I don't recommend my course of action though. See, it gives people insomnia, makes 'em ramble. And quote monty python. Weird. And it makes them delusional. About capes and stuff.
But I have to leave right now. To rescue a dog. YES I KNOW. I'm collecting dogs instead of dating. Well at least they ain't stooopid!!
And now I'm laughing. WHY? Well because. I'm rescuing a dachshund.
A WEINER.
i'm not lying.
About worrying, nightmares. Issues and coping. And the past. Mixed into a relationship.
I have no words for that. Nuthin' Well, except to say that the way I handle it, is to not date. I stopped that a long time ago. Had to. Environmental hazards. I don't recommend my course of action though. See, it gives people insomnia, makes 'em ramble. And quote monty python. Weird. And it makes them delusional. About capes and stuff.
But I have to leave right now. To rescue a dog. YES I KNOW. I'm collecting dogs instead of dating. Well at least they ain't stooopid!!
And now I'm laughing. WHY? Well because. I'm rescuing a dachshund.
A WEINER.
i'm not lying. In about an hour we take Shannon to Santa Cruz to be admitted for "rehab". Her inpatient stay that will hopefully help her stay on the sober path. She's already done with withdrawal, and is now 11 days sober. Wish her luck!
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1kiss_of_life:
and i still don't know what a sceam is.
Oh neverfuckingmind. The thread was zotted. dammit.
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Oh neverfuckingmind. The thread was zotted. dammit.
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1kiss_of_life:
Yeah, I remember talking about that. That was back in June. Just before I asked Dad about Terry. I'm glad I asked Dad to talk to him. Although, my hands are still shaking from typing it.
And on a lighter note ... to be honest. When I read it again, although it made me cry, I could hear Forrest narrating. Forrest. Forrest Gump. Yes. I know. I know. I am just shaking my head too.
And on a lighter note ... to be honest.
When I read it again, although it made me cry, I could hear Forrest narrating. Forrest. Forrest Gump. Yes. I know. I know. I am just shaking my head too.The Al-Anon meeting was a great help. I definately plan to make that a weekly event for the forseeable future. Both to learn how to help my girl, and to keep myself from going nuts with my own issues. I have a whole new appreciation for those who have gotten clean and sober after years of addiction. Shannon comes home from Tahoe on Friday to...
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1kiss_of_life:
Or ya know, I could just leave the basement as I originally designed it ... you know, more like a dungeon. I didn't take a picture of everything. I thought it might scare you.
Yes, I am that damned funny.
1kiss_of_life:
Dude, it's just a gun and a basement. Jeesh.
I was thinking of quitting my day job though. um, oh nevermind.
You are just jealous because you have a little gun. So there.
I was thinking of quitting my day job though. um, oh nevermind.
You are just jealous because you have a little gun. So there.
Just found out Shannon was drinking again last night. Went to her first AA meeting drunk. I wonder how common that is for first timers. Tonight is going to be hard. She's apparently hidden more bottles of alcohol around. I love her so much, but right now I'm just so incredibly pissed off at her I want to scream. She's fucking up the best thing...
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1kiss_of_life:
I'm sorry S. I don't know how common that is. The meeting tomorrow I'm sure will help you out some. *sigh* I have nuthin'.
Krull, I have the Krull Special Edition DVD. That's about as good as it gets.
I'm sorry S. I don't know how common that is. The meeting tomorrow I'm sure will help you out some. *sigh* I have nuthin'.
Krull, I have the Krull Special Edition DVD. That's about as good as it gets.