thisiswhoweare

Gotta get ready to leave soon, heading across the bay to Her place. We're goin to the Peek-a-boo burlesque show (featuring Tigerlilly and Bliss) tonight and having dinner. I gotta remember not to drink too much. The martini-courage just gets me into trouble. More friends are telling me to cut off all contact with Her, as I'm unable to date because of my feelings for Her. The last girl I tried to go out with told me she didn't want to see me anymore. She could tell my heart wasn't in it, and didn't want to be someone's 2nd choice. Fair enough. Cutting Her out would be a lot easier if She wasn't the coolest person I know up here. I find myself unable to sleep again, I don't even try to go to bed until 3:00 am anymore... I know what I SHOULD do, but I don't want to, and wouldn't know how even if I did. That last girl assumes that She and I are going to get together at some point. I don't see that happening. I wish it would, but even if SHe were to become suddenly available again, I'd be far too timid to try anything. She's really out of my league anyhow. I'm really lucky just to get to be Her friend...

I was watching the parade of nations at the olympics last night, and just as Canada (Her country) walked by, and I was of course thinking of Her, She called. How does She do that? Maybe it's because I'm ALWAYS thinking of Her... This is a bad idea, I'm just going to end up getting hurt again, yet I can't stop myself. She's just too amazing, funny, and brilliant to pass up.

Bother and rot.