So Saturday night we met at Her place, the one She was moving from the next day. It's beautiful there, up in the hills on San Rafael in the Marin area. We went to dinner at a fantastic little Italian place in Fairfax.. She's a vegetarian, so it's tough to find places we both really like sometimes. So we were waiting just inside the door,...
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dravenraine:
Thank you so much for all the info!!! It was so sweet of you to do that. Its been forever since I have been on a plane so of course I am nervous and I didn't know what I could take and stuff. You answered many of my questions, so thank you VERY much 
Oh and btw... do you think it would be a problem if I took some vinyl bondage tape? I wasn't sure if they would let me have that or not. 
Oh and btw... do you think it would be a problem if I took some vinyl bondage tape? I wasn't sure if they would let me have that or not.
dravenraine:
LOL thank you Yep thats about the only things I was worried about taking. Everything else is just clothes and shoes and makeup 
ANd yeah it will be one hell of a trip!!! hehhehe 
It drives me crazy being away from him but then when I see him....OoOoOOoOo SO MUCH FUN! 
Thanks again for all your help
Yep thats about the only things I was worried about taking. Everything else is just clothes and shoes and makeup ANd yeah it will be one hell of a trip!!! hehhehe It drives me crazy being away from him but then when I see him....OoOoOOoOo SO MUCH FUN! Thanks again for all your help Gotta get ready to leave soon, heading across the bay to Her place. We're goin to the Peek-a-boo burlesque show (featuring Tigerlilly and Bliss) tonight and having dinner. I gotta remember not to drink too much. The martini-courage just gets me into trouble. More friends are telling me to cut off all contact with Her, as I'm unable to date because of my feelings for...
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Another night, another dream of Her. She was leaving town soon, so I rushed to the airport to suprise her and say good bye. I'm running through the terminal (luckily the security is not as strict in the dreaming) and I see her sitting with 2 others at the gate. I run up and sit next to her, and she looks over, not really suprised...
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ayurvedium:
millennium+firefly=sg friends.
xoxox
xoxox
cureelise:
I missed the chance to see what u wear under your kilt. 
I missed the chance to see what u wear under your kilt. "Yes, I now feel that it was then on that evening of sweet dreams- that the very first dawn of human love burst upon the icy night of my spirit. Since that period I have never seen nor heard your name without a shiver half of delight, half of anxiety."
For some stupid reason I sent Her this quote today. I'm afraid to hear her...
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For some stupid reason I sent Her this quote today. I'm afraid to hear her...
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Aagh! I just talked to her again. I'm going nuts over this. I KNOW I need to just be a supportive friend, or cut all ties. But I'm so afraid that I'm going to have to do the latter that I'm holding on for dear life. If I stay as the friend, I have to silence the actual supportive friends thoughts of "you could do...
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contradiction:
dude, if she did that, you need to totally talk to her about her feelings for you. You don't tell someone about a sex dream unless:
a) you like them and want them to know it or
b) you know somebody likes you and you want to see them squirm.
Either way, you kinda need to know, eh?
a) you like them and want them to know it or
b) you know somebody likes you and you want to see them squirm.
Either way, you kinda need to know, eh?
thisiswhoweare:
You don't tell someone about a sex dream unless:
a) you like them and want them to know it or
b) you know somebody likes you and you want to see them squirm.Either way, you kinda need to know, eh?
Yeah, I know you're right. If you had a sex dream about a friend, one you weren't into, would you tell them? Probably not... But what if it's (B)? I can't see her wanting to screw with me intentionally... but then again, I'm absolutely cluless as to the intentions of women anymore. My other friends are taking me out this weekend to try to get me "out there". I just keep thinking about HER at the most inappropriate times. Like when someone else is trying to flirt with me so I'm oblivious. My friends have to point it out on the drive home what what girls were trying to do... Makes me feel like a 'tard.
a) you like them and want them to know it or
b) you know somebody likes you and you want to see them squirm.Either way, you kinda need to know, eh?
Yeah, I know you're right. If you had a sex dream about a friend, one you weren't into, would you tell them? Probably not... But what if it's (B)? I can't see her wanting to screw with me intentionally... but then again, I'm absolutely cluless as to the intentions of women anymore. My other friends are taking me out this weekend to try to get me "out there". I just keep thinking about HER at the most inappropriate times. Like when someone else is trying to flirt with me so I'm oblivious. My friends have to point it out on the drive home what what girls were trying to do... Makes me feel like a 'tard.
I'm very sorry about my inability to behave properly around you. I'm also not sure if I'm better at hiding it than I think, but I've GOT to be making an ass of myself. I know you don't need this crap. I don't mean to be spewing it. I thought I'd be okay, I though I could just be happy for you. I found myself...
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mtlqueen:
Don't be that guy... It is so much better to be THAT guy! The one she wants to come over like every day! Whenever. And you don't even have to call first. And then you don't have to leave either. That's the kind of guy you are... but not to her... so don't be. Let her go and find someone with less restrictions! (Can you tell I was divorced before 30? Remarried before 30?) I am a believer, baby. Trust me. I can see from your words you are too... It should be so much easier... Just my 2 cents, hope I haven't been too forthcoming, but you put a lot into that journal entry and it seems trite to just write, "Dude. 
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contradiction:
thanks for the ideas...I forgot about "lover" and "partner/life partner", and "mate". And you were right about why they all suck. But it's funny.
As far as the girl goes...all you can do is be there for and care about her with no expectations, or you can walk away. Unfortunately, telling people how you really feel doesn't work a lot of the time - I have learned this very often lately with my guy, sometimes ya just gotta pick your battles cuz people don't hear you the way that you hear yourself. You can't speak feelings, and words are notoriously problematic. If you tell her the guy she is with sucks and she could do better, she is going to think you are saying she can't make proper decisions for herself. If you ask her to make some kind of decision regarding whether or not she wants to be with you ever, she is going to feel uncomfortable and pick the easiest exit (aka walking away). I would either wait it out, be her friend, no expectations (this sometimes turns into so much more) or just cut your losses and find a girl who knows you are the shit.
As far as the girl goes...all you can do is be there for and care about her with no expectations, or you can walk away. Unfortunately, telling people how you really feel doesn't work a lot of the time - I have learned this very often lately with my guy, sometimes ya just gotta pick your battles cuz people don't hear you the way that you hear yourself. You can't speak feelings, and words are notoriously problematic. If you tell her the guy she is with sucks and she could do better, she is going to think you are saying she can't make proper decisions for herself. If you ask her to make some kind of decision regarding whether or not she wants to be with you ever, she is going to feel uncomfortable and pick the easiest exit (aka walking away). I would either wait it out, be her friend, no expectations (this sometimes turns into so much more) or just cut your losses and find a girl who knows you are the shit.
Public service announement! Write down the numbers in your cell phone once in while! If you accidentally smash the thing you're screwed!
thisiswhoweare:
This and that
Saw her last night. We went into San Francisco to see a movie and have some drinks. It's hard to believe it'd been 3 months since I'd seen her. We talk and write constantly, but I haven't seen her eyes, or the way her nose crinkles when she thinks I'm nuts. Of course, now she's back with HIM. I want to keep seeing her as...
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Another dream about her last night.
Another dream ruined by the unwelcome appearance of a shark too. Stupid shark!
Another dream ruined by the unwelcome appearance of a shark too. Stupid shark!
contradiction:
ARRRRRRGGGGGHHH kill the shark, matey!
thanks for the cob bit
ARRRRRRGGGGGHHH kill the shark, matey!
thanks for the cob bit
thisiswhoweare:
I was TRYING to kill it! I was throwing rocks at it, but the rocks were sinking too slowly to do any damage. I was in hip-deep water to boot. Too shallow to swim away fast, but too deep to run away. Damn sharks or crocodiles keep ruining my good dreams!!!
I miss talking to Her in person...