thisisalladream

"she wasn't perfect but i loved her, you know? I would kill everyone here to bring her back. Anyway, good luck class of 2008."

i've been hibernating in a manner of speaking. the healthy love glow i've avoided talking about due to jinxing it or getting ahead of myself is in full effect. i just hope this one sticks. not that i have any doubt, to my knowledge anyway. but you do never know. never, ever.

i feel an overwhelming calmness settling over this city, over my life, even while other little bits spin out of control. i know that this time is different than all the others and as much as i've utttered those words before this one feels different. i don't have that naggin voice in the back of my mind telling me otherwise, sneaking in to plant that seed that grows slowly but who's roots take up so much space that my heart and brain falter under it's weight. this isn't like the others, we shall see.

inded. we shall see.....