thisisalladream

after the spectacle that was last night, i just don't give a fuck about anything anymore.

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i can be a bit overly dramatic from time to time and the other night seemed to make that bubble out of me in ways i didn't even realize. there is a lot going on in my life at the moment, mostly grainy and bitter, but i'm hoping with the weary eyes and heavy heart that things change for the better.

that everyone will come to the party with levelheadedness, apologies in hand, and some sort of reconciliation can be had. i have words and phrases that i need to answer for and have answered. i have an awful lot locked up behind this ribcage and even more buried beneath.

i will remain hopeful between heavy sighs and the wiping away of these puddles of water surrounding my feet. and yes, as ill-informed and idiotic as i can be at times, i hope that he'll say certain words to me to make the air lighter, better, whole again.

i'll keep my fingers crossed...