thisisalladream

combine an increasing amount of stress, trying to remain busy, and pulled heart strings and you end up with one very confused girl with a jutted out bottom lip.

i suppose i'm pouting, considering the fact that my lip usually doesn't remain in this position for very long, at least not lately.

i've been avoiding a plethora of people lately for varying reasons. mostly having to do with the fact that i am so over being disappointed by others. which seems to be happening in droves lately. i have always maintained the idea that i will never have it all figured out and i knew that getting into this. i didn't expect, however, that my demeanor would be used against me. or should i say as a reason, no that's not right.

apparently i stir up unrequited feelings in some people that make them long for love long past and become increasing confused about little old me.

i should become use to all this by now. i have a barrage of excuses stored in neatly wrapped boxes that contribute to all the clusters in my head.

i need to stop making assumptions but in my first great feat of being in the moment and attempting to be in a relaxed and "see where this goes" kind of action it does appear that i have indeed tripped myself up yet again.

we will see i guess...