thisisalladream

late nights and no sleep...

my mind is racing and i wish that:

1. i could actually sleep at night.
2. i could stop coughing. *cough,cough,cough*
3. that someone was up to talk so i could get out of my head and stop the worrying.
4. i hate worrying.
5. i hate it a bunch.
6. i will not stop at "top five" when concerning my thoughts at the time being....

i wish boys made sense to me, didn't live so far away, wouldn't leave me guessing, wouldn't make my heart ache (although i kind of like and dislike that part), would just let me know if they were interested or at least let me know if i should be moving on, would remain faithful, would stick up for me when needed (note: not all the time and not in a fist fight sort of way but in a, "hey don't talk to her like that." kind of way), would keep me in mind, wouldn't break my heart.

i get a little heartbroken at night, please forgive this, but know that i will always remain full of hope that someday it will all fall into place.(karma explosion!)

"and maybe i just set aside the fact that you were broken hearted. in my own special selfish way. and if i hadn't set aside the fact that you were broken hearted. hell knows where your heart would be today. maybe with me. it seems like it's been so long since we kissed through the darkness, until it was dawn. up with it came our pain and fear that we'd already lost each other. we both knew that the end was near."