thisfire

I've always understood that I'm where I am because of my choices.
I've never understood why I've made the choices I have.
I've been unhappy for 26 years,
Wasting my time doing what is expected of me.
I've tried to change the world through my actions,
Because I've always known that changing the world starts with me.

I hate life.
I don't want to be here.
I never have.
I don't work right.
I'll never be part of the society as it's been layed out in front of me.

Today I forget about the past.
Right now I'm gonna start the fire that burns what I've been.
In an instant of clarity, I'm pressing reset on a wasted life,
Filled with nothing but cigarette smoke and wasted time.

No more regrets.
No more bowing down.
No more wasted time.

I'm making my choices for me from now on.
Fuck the boss.
Fuck the parents.
Fuck what I'm supposed to do.

I'm living life for me from now on.

Rebirth begins with the death of the past.
100, 000 cigarettes and 1,000,000 beers later,
It flatlines now.

P.S. I'm not trying to be poetic. That's just how my thoughts sound.