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I have my pj's on... So kiddies are you ready for a story. You may or may not know I used to be friends with a member on here. Then one night in October said friend through this major fit and when I did not acknowledge her fit she told me to fuck off we were not friends anymore. I was hurt. DEEPLY but that is not the reason I left SG. I left SG because said person started telling everyone what I posted here. Furthermore, she accused me of talking shit about her, when I didn't and then took things I told her in confidence and told everyone. This was devistating to me. I felt that I could not stay with this person being able to access everything I said and using it for her idol gossip. Believe me, having read some of her past entries this year, I could tell you that a good portion of them are out and out lies. However, I know that she is a sick person who has to build a world of pity and has NO IDEA how badly she destroyed me. Her crushing blow, she knew I was attracted to her at one time and she said that I stop being her friend because she didn't (THESE ARE HER WORDS) fuck me. Those words destroyed me. Not that she would care she has a long track of people she has destroyed. Just for the record I was beyond low. I started not to trust anyone. I was afraid to reach out to anyone on SG because Iwas afraid they would believe what she had said. I started to hate life. When I hit rock bottom, I felt the only option was for me to leave and heal. It has been 6 months and I am doing a lot better because I see her for what she really is TOXIC.
I will never tell a single person not to be her friend. She needs friends. However, I would warn not to let her too close. She is a vampire.

So, with that being said, I also lost my job in December. I was really sad because I love my job. I love to get up and go to work. Well, I was supppose to go back in January. I went back in March. With a pay raise and a promotion. I have never been happier. I spent my Winter Vacation Healing, going to intense therapy for panic attacks. I wrote journals and letters. I dealt with my mother and my family. I cried A LOT and then one day, I looked in the mirror and said you know what I aint the evil person. I am a good person. I am a happy person and if people really know me or even want to know me they will not belive the lies that have been said. If they choose to believe the lies than you know what they are not the kind of people that I want in my life.

Other highlights, I let a new girl in my life. I try not to let people get close but she just snuck in. She is petite blonde. Sexy and sweet.

My adopted little sister return to my life. It has been amazing to have her back in my life. She and I spend hours burning up the telephone lines and emails. This girl can gab.

More about me, I started not trying to be a sponge and absorb other people's personality. I am a person who thrives on life to the fullest.

So, now back to good stuff, there is this guy at work. Oh he is so sweet and I have been teasing him. You know and I have been helping him out. Well, I find out today he is one of my ultra cool boss' boss. He and my bosses other boss came down today and told me that they are thinking of making a permanet fixture around there and would like to talk carrer paths with me. I feel really lucky because there are others who are looking at unemployment soon.
The hubby is still working at the same company. It is so cool we get lunch at Sandy's place and then we just talk and giggle. No PDA.

Ok kiddies... I am sure you are both asleep but I will write more soon.

Please see my new pictures I have posted.

I miss you guys -soooooooooooooooooo much.