Blog homework #1 FAILURE- leave your story in a comment <3 <3 <3
So, I guess for me- my biggest fear has always been failure. I don't want to fail because it was shoved in my face..... I mean........ brought to my attention, that if I failed I was no better than my parents.
This reflected into every part of my life and I was so driven for success that I chased what my single-mother-who-had-something-to-prove wanted me to chase. This would namely be money, stability, normalcy, conservative and respectable accomplishments and acknowledgment/acceptance from my peers. Of course, as I'm sure most of SG nation can sympathize with, I was straight up WEIRD and none of that mainstream "success" crap was going to happen. I'm not exactly Miss America and I can't exactly do Calculus. Although I do speak five different languages and can run a mile in 5 minutes and 9 seconds- but thats a whole other story.
So I chased the success and chased it and chased and it led in all the wrong spots. But one day my car flipped down the side of a cliff three times and I woke up in a hospital alone having to call my family to tell them what happened- only to be asked about the car and never once about my permanent brain injury.Finally, after years of being forced to fear failure I snapped- cut my ties, walked away from the Marine Corps, my Security Degree, my family, my apartment in scenic Prescott with a mountain view, and most importantly, my fear of failing. I moved to the big city and started working my way up.
I'm still afraid of failure, actually.... more like petrified. But I face it everyday- knowing I'm not on a fast track to success. Everyday I wonder if things will go right and if I will find my own version of success. But I keep moving through it a step at a time. Because every journey, even the one into the unknown, begins with a single step.
Don't fear failure because everyone fails. I believe everyone has a niche, a purpose, a gift. Find your true gift- and give it first to yourself.
Leave your testimonies on fear, failure and/or the will to keep going. <3 <3 <3