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well today I decided to break my little shield from some one and tell her I missed her, she said she missed me too but was going to sleep and to text her tomarrow. I go On face book and there she is making me feel stupid that i told her I missed her :/ I should have disappeared for a month instead it was a week but its hard when you talk to a person like every day when you loved them and thought well what if I wouldn't lol. she said she couldn't talk too me a week ago cause of drama and that she'd text me in a few days which was the next day. instead of a sorry or some thing i got a how was your flight I didn't answer.

We wenet from close friends and loves to close friends and now like causal friends and I need to keep my distance cause when i need to be cuddly she isn't but if she needs to I am. she's been through a lot but I think it pisses me off that she says what she liked was our friendship though she got jealous when i talked about other girls and one time like a sly fuck I got her jealous with her self to show her she has value, she's actually one of the sweetest girls I know. but again it pisses me off the girl spent 3 years with a fat ugly fuck who did some fuck up shit to her that I considered hurting this son of a bitch real bad for. and me who is actually not fat cute and she tells me so and the best cuddler from what she says and best massages not even a month.

I miss her as a friend too though, we were friends for a good while but I'm not over her and some times may be she doen;'t help.

I thinlk I'm mad my week was great i know hers was a bit aweful and i let myself miss her and my heart was pounding a bit as I asked my self should i can I? will I handle it and I'm not sure if she slept or not but it seemed not