theyerg

alright real deal update. things have been in my head. i keep meeting unattainable women.that is the biggest mental kick in th nuts for me. i know that too often i focus on the more romantic pursuits, or lack there of, to begin with. but when i find someone that interests me and they are out of reach, it makes it harder. like i said. all in my head.
the next thing that has been kicking my ass is my lack of ability to manage funds. i should have been on my way to PA tomorrow for the east coast camping trip. i just couldn't swing it. it doesn't seem as though i was doing anything different, it just isn't happening. the last three weeks have been ramen weeks for me. i fucking hate that.
and of course the next domino in that argument would be the job. its an absolutely thankless job. you do a good job and they tell you its history. what are you going to do next? i remember taking those comm. classes in college that gave me stats about how people take job satisfaction over money a large percentage of the time. well, i am getting neither at my job. and i have been with the company for five years. including working my ass off through a bankruptcy when we didn't even know if we were going to get paid some weeks. i have passed on offers from headhunters before, but that is getting increasingly difficult to do. i got a call tonight from a guy that wants me to work for a contractor doing houses and condos down in myrtle beach. i don't fucking know. i just don't fucking know.
hope you all have a blast up at the camping trip that are going. the rest of you just enjoy the week.