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I almost called him last night but then I realized it was a lost cause.

It hurts to breathe again.

It's like the end of October/November all over again and this time I don't know what I can do to stop it.

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Life is shit.

Things went sour with Aaron.

I lost my job.

My dog got run over.

My cat, who is my best friend, ran away.

I want to run away from all this shit and start over, or have my memory erased or something.

Life is a bum out.

This weekend was amazing. I spent it with Aaron Patrick from Ohio, at his apartment in Kentucky. I can't remember the last time I was THIS happy.

Leaving him today was so hard. I cried. I haven't missed someone this much in so long. I hope he feels the same.

That's all.

So I'm pretty screwed.

Raychul moved out and although I adore having my own room, I can't afford to pay 700 bucks a month, plus bills, plus gas, plus food. I NEED to get a second job now ON TOP of my shitty job. I can't just find a job I like better that I could make the 350 on. This is ridiculous.

She said...
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mmm tonight I went to la to see Brandi Carlile. So fucking good. I adore her and the twins. I'm so excited they got signed to columbia. It was good to see them again.

I love having friends... or at least thinking I do.

I haven't talked to Raychul since Thursday. I'm convinced she hates me. Oh well if we share a room, right?

Ohio...
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So yesterday was probably one of the longest days I've had in a long time. I fell asleep at work so many times. Not good... at all. I was in the bathroom blowing my nose and I totally fell asleep and woke up when I hit the ground. That could have been really bad. I almost hit the sink.

After work I came home and...
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Hi my names Emma and I'm a fucking moron.

So I know that my right ear is in bad shape from being ripped TWICE 3 years ago... but my dumbass deicides to skip a guage and well... it ripped again. My ears feel like they're going to fall off and my right one won't stop bleeding.

I'm hella tired and I have work at 7,...
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I need a new job. Mine sucks real hard. It'd be nice to work someplace that doesnt care about body mods, and that I could pay the rent off of. Oh well. I guess I'm stuck at my shitty office job.

Oh how I'd love to be more than just a member. Seems like so much fun.

23 days until Ohio.