theybeatasone

I haven't talked to him in over a month.

My whole world feels like it is falling apart.

Last night I dreamt he moved here and told me he cared, but would kiss other girls behind my back.
I woke myself up so I wouldn't torture myself.
I woke up crying.
I'd fall back asleep and go right back to the dream where I left off.
I hated it.
I finally just got out of bed.

Now that I think about it, I almost want to go back to sleep...
Back to the dream...
It's the only time I get to spend with him...
And I miss him so much it's not bareable.