thewretched_dm

I can't help but feel there is something missing inside of me.

Like there is just this black hole where the love goes...and no matter the music that I love, or the people that are a part of me they can't close it up....

I should buy a board and nail that fucker shut. It shouldn't be open anymore, that wound should have healed by...
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So now I work for a corporation....the K-mart world of industry. Now I can save up. Now I can make it through. Now I have a goal. Now I can leave this place. This pain. This hatred. This waiting period. And I am hoping that by the end of summer I can leave, but for now I just have to work hard. Save up and...
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If I have to go back to that place. If I have to put up with you again...that pathetic excuse for a human being. That sadistic tormenter....the ruiner of lives. I will pop. And everything dark inside of me will spill...it will spill apon you. Because I am not dealing with it anymore...these are your problems now. My mind left a long time ago and...
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Just held down. For the last few days, I have been held down by myself, by life, by you, by them, by school, by stress, by pain, by..... And I don't know what to do anymore. I just sit and take. I used to scream, I used to shout. But now....it all just seems useless. What is the point in fighting it. The last thinkgs...
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I have so much homework my head is going to pop. And why is it necessary to work someone to death just to see their head spin? Mine is spinning, oh it's spinning right now. Spinning out into the oblivian of a body hitting a car. Like a ragdoll I roll to the ground. Blood splattered all around. Where am I going? What have I...
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The happiest place on earth, a phrase trademarked by the Disney company. And at first I had my doubt, and I still do. But for me that phrase surprisingly applies. I went for the first time in a long time, crossed the thresh hold of a child's dream into Disneyland. And I think it is pretty impressive that they managed to make me happy. Being...
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Been real busy lately. And today we are going down to Oakland for my best friends birthday. Quite a drive, but her sister in law baked her a pretty cake. It will be cool, I made a cheesy potato dish for the potluck, I hope it isn't to white trash. You know the cornflakes can scare, but it actually tastes really good. I really like...
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Low today, just my conditions have managed to take me over again....as they do so often. The pain just clouds my judgement. It takes away my being, by becoming it's own being. I should give it a name, no a name would give it more power. It shall forever be anonymous. And remain a part of me, to one day take me over. Then I...
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Well this would be my first entry. I have been oggling SG for a while now and finally had some spare money to use on a membership. I'm tired, updated my deviantart, and have everything set for the week. Or atleast now I think so. But I know once I wake up tomorrow there is going to be a whole nother set of things that...
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