thewintersoldier

It's been a long time sing I have updated this, and I am sorry. Things have been a roller coaster for me. I started seeing this girl i really, really thought was awesome... and my band started to share a practice room with no use for a name... potential for some real help now. I have been given 40 hours a week at work again and been told that within the next 9 months I will be asst manager... but today... the girl broke it off... and I feel absolutely miserable. I think I was just too nice basically, too sweet, too romantic... and a lot of girls can't trust that... but I with I was dead right now. I feel soooooooooo shitty, I like her so much. And she was so pretty, and smart and intelligent, and had great taste in so many things, and she was classy and not at the same time. Why does shit happen? I feel fucking terrible! Oh well, I think we all do when start to just give in and just let ourself fall for someone... and they tell us that that they are just so busy it is gonna be hard... and they don't want stop spending time with us or hanging out with us, and they don't wanna lose our company but things can't be how I dreamed after all... even after showing signs of otherwise.

In the end, life is fucked up, but I just want something real... with someone... show your face whoever you are, cuz I am losing fucking patience.