thewintersoldier

Today I am ecstatic, I bought some thing I have wanted for a long time.
I bought love and sex on dvd which is like one of my favorite movies of all time because it is cute yet witty and passionate and still real, it's a romantic comedy that does not get too flowery or out there, it is real life, holds and to real human emotions, I love it. Then i bought a book on veganism, that contains a bunch of great essays on animal rights and also health issues and mainly how it is not necessary to kill anymore. A book that seems amazing that is a huge religious debate between freud and c.s. lewis that sounds like it is gonna be a great read because they both are huge extremists to me and I am not religious or do not believe in a nature based existence... not sure what I am... agnostic I guess, but it should just be REALLY interesting, and a book called the question of god which is a philisophical as well as historical unbiased question and answer session that seems sooo interesting. other than that I have like no hours at work this week which really sux but I guess I get to relax and get some video games in
and I get to see the singer from thrice play solo on sunday and then later in the week see killswitch engage so I am pleased. other than that things are normal... I have been writing a lot of music lately but not too much poetry or lyrics...

I started this:

Sad to see you haven't lost your touch, the embrace of a bittersweet inspiration to dive face first into self sacrifice. To give it all away for a synthetic self-manifested assurance that this will surely flourish. But down here, underneath the clouds, it's sure to perish. Careeing from the top of the world, to the depths of desperation... You've sent me here... You've marked my path with common footsteps and self disgust. a path of mire formed from tears and marching in place. You showed promise, and though you made it clear that it was effortless, the pieces did not fit, we formed to no greater image... and therefore you would keep your distance while standing oh so close... my heart kept it's ethereal hands extended towards you... but it is nwo that these hands give way... and pull back nothing... while handing out so much... why was i so willing to change... when change that seemed to promise more... only promised less of me...