Would someone please change the record!
This record is stuck, it keeps playing the same song, over and over again. And each time when it gets to the part where it skips, like a moron I think that that this time it is going to change the tune. I am a firm believer that we are responsible for our actions and we have to play with the hand we are dealt, but I was in Vegas for my birthday a few weeks ago and I kept getting dealt the same shitty cards, over and over again. I thought about math, how the odds never change, the odds are constant and start over. If you flip a coin 500 times, and it hits heads 376 times in a row, it is still fifty fifty to hit tails. So at this point I need what I have always needed, an opportunity to jump on. Currently there is one off in the distance that may arise and may not, but if it does, I assure you I will swan dive on to it and hold on with all my might. Until then it is another day in purgatory.
The love life remains a sad joke. I had to break up with my not girlfriend again because being the sometimes yes I want you guy and Im busy and dont care about you guy was not healthy for me anymore. She is not going to change and it is never going to stop bothering me. Maybe it is a sign of maturity that I can say no to a beautiful woman, but check back in a few weeks and I will probably have caved again.
When you are not looking forward to anything, you are basically waiting to die. And sadly that is what I am doing. This is not a woe is me, my life is so rough blah blah blah. I am just saying, that I am not excited about anything and today is the same as yesterday etc etc... And that sucks. So if you have the opportunity to live your life fully and fear of blank is holding you back, conquer that fear and grab on.
This record is stuck, it keeps playing the same song, over and over again. And each time when it gets to the part where it skips, like a moron I think that that this time it is going to change the tune. I am a firm believer that we are responsible for our actions and we have to play with the hand we are dealt, but I was in Vegas for my birthday a few weeks ago and I kept getting dealt the same shitty cards, over and over again. I thought about math, how the odds never change, the odds are constant and start over. If you flip a coin 500 times, and it hits heads 376 times in a row, it is still fifty fifty to hit tails. So at this point I need what I have always needed, an opportunity to jump on. Currently there is one off in the distance that may arise and may not, but if it does, I assure you I will swan dive on to it and hold on with all my might. Until then it is another day in purgatory.
The love life remains a sad joke. I had to break up with my not girlfriend again because being the sometimes yes I want you guy and Im busy and dont care about you guy was not healthy for me anymore. She is not going to change and it is never going to stop bothering me. Maybe it is a sign of maturity that I can say no to a beautiful woman, but check back in a few weeks and I will probably have caved again.
When you are not looking forward to anything, you are basically waiting to die. And sadly that is what I am doing. This is not a woe is me, my life is so rough blah blah blah. I am just saying, that I am not excited about anything and today is the same as yesterday etc etc... And that sucks. So if you have the opportunity to live your life fully and fear of blank is holding you back, conquer that fear and grab on.
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And I hope your love life starts to look up, I know that record all too well myself. Le sigh!