Past Transgressions
I have basically been a good person for most of my life. Right and wrong matter to me. If I find a wallet on the ground Im going to make every attempt to return it to people. Im honest with both my friends and people that I deal with. I care when I hurt someones feelings, and while Im largely unmoved by others opinions, I do like the fact that my friends have a high regard for my integrity.
That said I did something out of character a few years ago and it has had a lasting effect on my self image. I was living in Japan and I was in a serious relationship. It turned out that the ceo of the company was embezzling money and the company went bankrupt. One morning I got a phone call that said "dont bother coming to work today" and we didnt get our last two paychecks. So my girlfriend and I talked about what would happen next. She didnt want to come to America with me, and I couldnt stay in Japan. So she asked me if we could continue. I told her we couldnt. There were tears and hugs etc. A few days later we had the same conversation with the same results. Plus there was another one over the phone. I tried teaching private students just to survive but i was only really making enough to eat. I got out the old calculator and figured out how many days I could survive before a plane ticket became impossible.
Another teacher who had just started moved in downstairs from me. It turns out Im exactly her type. Which is crazy because Im not anyones type. We hit it off pretty well, and before you know it we were fucking like bunnies every chance we got. I told her I wasnt going to sleep with my ex and she told me she didnt care, but I did, so I didnt.
Then one day after finishing a private lesson with one of my students, a woman my age, asked to come back to my place. In Japan, women only come to your place for one reason in that situation. So I said why not and went ahead and had sex with her as well.
Apparently, while new girl felt it was okay for me to have sex with my ex, it was not okay to have sex with Keiko, so she was less than thrilled, but that is not the moral of the story. The moral of the story is that I have never cheated with anyone in my entire life. Even in Junior High! Im faithful and loyal and I take pride in that. Not that I have cheated since then either but the point is, that I feel that I lost something when I did that and it is not going to come back.
I have basically been a good person for most of my life. Right and wrong matter to me. If I find a wallet on the ground Im going to make every attempt to return it to people. Im honest with both my friends and people that I deal with. I care when I hurt someones feelings, and while Im largely unmoved by others opinions, I do like the fact that my friends have a high regard for my integrity.
That said I did something out of character a few years ago and it has had a lasting effect on my self image. I was living in Japan and I was in a serious relationship. It turned out that the ceo of the company was embezzling money and the company went bankrupt. One morning I got a phone call that said "dont bother coming to work today" and we didnt get our last two paychecks. So my girlfriend and I talked about what would happen next. She didnt want to come to America with me, and I couldnt stay in Japan. So she asked me if we could continue. I told her we couldnt. There were tears and hugs etc. A few days later we had the same conversation with the same results. Plus there was another one over the phone. I tried teaching private students just to survive but i was only really making enough to eat. I got out the old calculator and figured out how many days I could survive before a plane ticket became impossible.
Another teacher who had just started moved in downstairs from me. It turns out Im exactly her type. Which is crazy because Im not anyones type. We hit it off pretty well, and before you know it we were fucking like bunnies every chance we got. I told her I wasnt going to sleep with my ex and she told me she didnt care, but I did, so I didnt.
Then one day after finishing a private lesson with one of my students, a woman my age, asked to come back to my place. In Japan, women only come to your place for one reason in that situation. So I said why not and went ahead and had sex with her as well.
Apparently, while new girl felt it was okay for me to have sex with my ex, it was not okay to have sex with Keiko, so she was less than thrilled, but that is not the moral of the story. The moral of the story is that I have never cheated with anyone in my entire life. Even in Junior High! Im faithful and loyal and I take pride in that. Not that I have cheated since then either but the point is, that I feel that I lost something when I did that and it is not going to come back.
PS- About your post above, women are funny like that. Did you tell her that you slept with your student, or did she find out? Women are creatures that say things and hope that their partner won't anyway. Sometimes you will find one that isn't like that! I suggest you read women are from venus and men are fro mars, helped me and my partner to understand the other gender!
Love xxx