Not sure what more else to say. I'm not terrible with my money, I don't make tons of superfluous purchases. I haven't got much to begin with. Most of my extra spending goes towards food. I don't cook at home much. It's hard to do when it's just me. It's not impossible either, it's just more convenient to pick up something from someplace like Taco Bell or a pizza joint. Beyond that, cost of living goes up and my wages stay the same. Living paycheck to paycheck and never having more than a few hundred dollars in the bank at a time, for very long.
No one in my family has money to spare and I'm not that close with any of them, at least not enough to feel comfortable asking them for help, without feeling like an asshole.
It's not the best time to look for another job.
1. I have no training or qualifications for anything better, so nothing would change. I'd just lose seniority, vacation time, and would have to take a cut in pay.
2. I had to take a big loan from my 401k, I'm not sure if a new employer would let that loan roll over into a new 401k or if I'd be fucked even worse.
3. My family would probably be disappointed that I had to once again change jobs. I've been with this current one for almost 7 years. The longest I've ever been at a job.
I don't want to move back in with either of my parents. My mom would drive me nuts and my dad, while much more tolerable, lives in a small apartment and it's not comfortable. Moving in with anyone from my immediate family will only make my depression and anxiety worse.
Ultimately, I'm just stressed out constantly. It's my bed and I made it. I just don't sleep well at all these days.