thevampdoyal

FORGIVENESS IN THE SHAPE OF A KNIFE

Let it die, releasing the hate
Letting it go, releasing pain
I was the one you mind-fucked
Yet here I am with my hand
Held out to close our distance
But then you sink in your teeth
Bite the hand, snuff forgiveness
Ignored like a dog and forgotten
Must be so easy for you to ascend
But you left my wings asunder
Left for dead, now Im the devil
Everything is so twisted to me
How dare you deny me anything
When I see you holding the gun?

I know you dont care
If only I were so lucky
Memories become curses
Smiles turn into tears
How dare I give you
What you never earned
Hate me for whatever reasons
You can convince yourself of
The only thing you deserve
Is forgiveness in the shape of
The knife I pulled from my back

Olive branch my ass you bitch
You made a fool of me already
Shame on me to offer compassion
When all you deserve is disrespect
Can you find it in that dead heart
To forgive me for feeling anything
Anything at all for you inside me
Try to slap down the dog again
See what happens when you extend the hand
Fuck me without even a kiss this time
And save that kiss for that same gun
That out of love Im sure, you used on me
Instead of forgiveness, I give suffering
If you had any honor youd be ashamed
I hope you see you for who you are one day
And you see my eyes staring back at you
When you finally run out of pride
All you will have left is your regrets
And I hope for you mine has a name

I know you dont care
If only I were so lucky
Memories become curses
Smiles turn into tears
How dare I give you
What you never earned
Hate me for whatever reasons
You can convince yourself of
The only thing you deserve
Is forgiveness in the shape of
The knife I pulled from my back