so I'm in an unhappy state... that's typical... usual.
funny thing is a certain person on here talked to me a few nights ago... and really she made me feel good about myself. she made me smile and be happy to face the next day... something that rarely happens with me.
for a few days now she hasn't really said anything to me.
she's busy, I'm sure. with her own life her own friends. her own world.
I just feel left out in the dark though. this person really made me feel cared about, even liked. no not loved I suppose not but liked alot. special? I've just been trying to talk to her alot lately, I've been cooped up in the house and alone and bored... I know she's busy and has a life. but I don't know there's still that feeling of being snubbed. undesired.... I'm sure it's all me, my fault... for thinking way to much into it all but that's what I always do. like I just can't help myself.
anyhow I wanted to tell her I'm sorry if I bothered her. I think I did. alot. and I wanted to let her know once again that she really made an impact on me... if only for just one night and a day. please excuse me for not wanting to see that go away. it was really the best feeling I've had in a long long time.
so then...
so long, farewell and thanks .... for all the fish.
funny thing is a certain person on here talked to me a few nights ago... and really she made me feel good about myself. she made me smile and be happy to face the next day... something that rarely happens with me.
for a few days now she hasn't really said anything to me.
she's busy, I'm sure. with her own life her own friends. her own world.
I just feel left out in the dark though. this person really made me feel cared about, even liked. no not loved I suppose not but liked alot. special? I've just been trying to talk to her alot lately, I've been cooped up in the house and alone and bored... I know she's busy and has a life. but I don't know there's still that feeling of being snubbed. undesired.... I'm sure it's all me, my fault... for thinking way to much into it all but that's what I always do. like I just can't help myself.
anyhow I wanted to tell her I'm sorry if I bothered her. I think I did. alot. and I wanted to let her know once again that she really made an impact on me... if only for just one night and a day. please excuse me for not wanting to see that go away. it was really the best feeling I've had in a long long time.
so then...
so long, farewell and thanks .... for all the fish.
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It is really nothing personal; I just went through a while back and deleted the people off my friends list that I no longer really kept in touch with.
The weekend my set went up, I was out of town. When I came back, I had 69 friend requests and ~100 comments. I also have a computer that only works for about three hours at a time, and slowly at that. I've been deleting friend requests wholesale. It has nothing to do with my "fame." It has everything to do with me being one overwhelmed little person.
If it means a lot to you, I have no problem adding you back, but please keep in mind that it is just the internet.
sorry if that is still shitty. I promise I don't mean to be.
[Edited on Jul 20, 2005 6:52PM]
id happily have your kitty
the wand on my action bar is a shadow damage wand i got from AH