so I don't even know if we're dating anymore... after along HARD HORRENDOUS day at work... I come home to a message my mom wrote "sarah called said she got a ride home, not to worry etc. and to call jimmy if I wanted to get a hold of her... well I don't have jimmy's phone # but after searching my archived old electronic organizer I found his home number in there and hoped for the best.
turns out it was the right # so I went over to his place we all hung out had a pretty good time too... came to be around 12:30 and she had to be home by 1 so we decided to start moving in that direction (of my car/her house) about half way there she says she wants to slow down... (the hot and cold thing) I even mentioned it to her... I don't like this stupid mind game. it's highschool all over again.
I like her, alot. I care about her alot... maybe alot more than she cares about me...
but it sounds like she dosen't even want to date now. not just me but anyone... cause she's afraid she'll cheat on me and she dosen't want that to happen. so to avoid hurting me more later ... she baisically decided to say that now... yea hurt me now it's okay, hurt me later it's not? what?
jimmy has a dry/smartass sense of humor and apparently she was talking to him about it earlier and he said something along the lines of "aww she's gonna break poor greggy's heart." and it bothered her... ... but y'know what well she is. I love nothing more than that feeling of being loved by someone being the most important person to somebody. not having that feeling makes me feel so alone and useless... worthless. maybe that isn't true but nothing you can say will change that feeling.
I want her to be happy and I said well sort your life out I care about you and I'll wait for you... which she told me not to wait for her... which kind of to me sounds like "I'm breaking up with you I just don't know how to say it so you don't know it" well I get it alright?
I started feeling really light headed, sick even.
yet another potentially wonderful relationship, ruined by girls with baggage. when am I finally going to get it right?
:'(
turns out it was the right # so I went over to his place we all hung out had a pretty good time too... came to be around 12:30 and she had to be home by 1 so we decided to start moving in that direction (of my car/her house) about half way there she says she wants to slow down... (the hot and cold thing) I even mentioned it to her... I don't like this stupid mind game. it's highschool all over again.
I like her, alot. I care about her alot... maybe alot more than she cares about me...
but it sounds like she dosen't even want to date now. not just me but anyone... cause she's afraid she'll cheat on me and she dosen't want that to happen. so to avoid hurting me more later ... she baisically decided to say that now... yea hurt me now it's okay, hurt me later it's not? what?
jimmy has a dry/smartass sense of humor and apparently she was talking to him about it earlier and he said something along the lines of "aww she's gonna break poor greggy's heart." and it bothered her... ... but y'know what well she is. I love nothing more than that feeling of being loved by someone being the most important person to somebody. not having that feeling makes me feel so alone and useless... worthless. maybe that isn't true but nothing you can say will change that feeling.
I want her to be happy and I said well sort your life out I care about you and I'll wait for you... which she told me not to wait for her... which kind of to me sounds like "I'm breaking up with you I just don't know how to say it so you don't know it" well I get it alright?
I started feeling really light headed, sick even.
yet another potentially wonderful relationship, ruined by girls with baggage. when am I finally going to get it right?
:'(
I told her she wouldn't make it. she's not like the girls on here... she's different yea... she's alt yea goth even...
I pointed out that the main idea of appeal on here is tatoos and piercings...
she mentioned she wants to get her ears pierced a 2nd time in each so 2 piercings in each ear...
the thing is she's too
at which point she declared she's afraid of needles and told me a story about when she was a kid getting her ears pierced.
well I don't like needles either and I started to say how I had pretty much complete stranger hold my hand when I got mine but it turned out to not even hurt a bit. but then she dosen't listen to me I have no fucking clue what I'm talking about with 00g plugs in my ears... which is more than I can say for her teeny little 18-16 gauge nubs she wears.
I just want to roll over and die right now.
I've heard so many shitty excuses for breaking up..makes me sick. Is it really that hard for someone to be decent enough to come straight out with it?! gar.
Well hopefully everything works out for you.You seem like a nice guy, you'll find a nice girl that won't play games 24/7.