theuberdork

y'know, I was thinking... why can't I add a picture from the archives as a favorite? even more taboo, why can't I add girls from archives to my actual top 5 (hey remember when it was top 3) i do, I remember when it switched to 5 and I had a pretty damn hard time trying to pick which 2 to add on for a while.


not to offend any of my current top 5 (hell fuck ass er uhm not like they read this anyways....) but I think most of them would be replaced with girls in the archives....

my top 5 isn't based entirely on looks, no sir! in fact it's really more based on who I find to have a swell personality. looks add a little bit but not a whole lot, expecially if a "girl" is nice to me and actually trys to at least ACT interested in my life outside SG... well that'll earn her points... I won't name any names. cause it's REALLY nobody else's business who I talk to online... with the exception of apnea... I don't think I could get a peep out of her if i became president of her fan club or something... (which will never happen cause well... I'm just not that guy.) so for her it's pretty much all looks...

I realize ALOT of people agree with me.... on that matter anyhow... it bothers me to see alot of the old timers, and even more of the new kids on the block get or getting smug/fat self absorbed heads...

alot of people may agree with me, alot of people may completely disagree, and that's fine.

I remember when I first got to this site (under a different name... hell it was years ago 2 at least right?) I was in a rough place... not many friends ... most of them ... no well all of them had gone away to school or to the military, I was trying to make friends as best as I could figure... I was rather unsuccesful at it, even online... I tried to talk to some people on here (probably not the RIGHT people) anyhow alot of people ended up telling me to post on the forums do this do that have an opinion think this think that... on the forums... I think it was about the first post I ever made, within minutes my post searching for friends and trying to be happy was not only ridiculed... but hijacked... twice.

I was ridiculed by some of the girls, I found REALLY attractive, and that I really respected. that really upset me and I dropped my sub... or was maybe zah-ted. y'know? it's hazie.

anyhow I made a few friends like "consuela" she's the one I remember the most and alot of the time seems to be the one to keep dragging me back for more let down...

well this time I decided not to let it get to me, I know who I liked, I know who was true and honest... and didn't go making fun of me either to my face OR behind my back... marla was the first SG I ever really talked to... turned out we worked for the same company... and we shot the shit about it and how we hated it and that kinda stuff. that was at least 2 years ago...

anyhow ...

if somebody asked me why I came here in the first place I'll tell ya "Chloe" not the chloe you all know and think is just great she calls her self katie on here now... I think.... I had a bit of a stupid intranet crush on her. and that's why I came in the first place I thought she was gorgeous, *they* made it sound like this little group of girls was... approachable.

perhaps even attainable... maybe even REAL... not like some stupid porn star... but tangible.

well turns out it's a lie, no I learned that a LONG long time ago.... so just a heads up for ye who enter seeking such things...


yea I know no one new will read this, and if I do get the bad luck of an old timer actually reading this I'll probably be fucked.


I have alot I could say about the shoddyness going on... the term sell out comes to mind... but most everyone else is doing it too anyways.

it's not so much that though. it's the hypocrasy of some... that really frustrates me..

::ramble over::