thetrooper

ok.....

So a good Friend of mine just called me. I thought she was dead! But turns out she's in NY and never told me she was going there. I really missed her and how we knew oneanother so well. Like we are one, like we love oneanother, but that is far, far,, from the truth! she is like a sister 2 me, she is an ex, but that was years ago. she is that one person that has been there for me always! I don't think she knows how much she means too me, like really means too me.

And then there is the one i love. i feel like she is never happy, ever. no matter what I do she is never happy. She is always unhappy and thinks that ppl hate her and i never get that happyness from her anymore. She never tell me that i make her happy. I know i do, but..... do i really?
b/c there is always somthing that tares me awy from her. wether it is me that does somthing or it's her being her. there is always somthing i feel is wrong.
like i'm nothing, like all i do it shit!

tho leatly it has been good for us. yet all i think about is the shit she pulls on me and the way there is always some bad choice she made and i find out about it.

i love the fucking girl!
but am i in love an image of what i want or am i in love with somone that loves me too?

i just want the truth.

ppl say the truth hurts, yes, it does but the truth would be nice. b/c with the truth i could live my life without that cloud that hags over my head.