Thursday Oct 27, 2005

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i hate my life right now. i hate having you so far away loving someone else. i hate how i hate all this shit about you. i hate myself.
i'm just not doing well with what i've put my self though.
i'm doing all the things i never did. they are just as empty as i knew they would be and it hurts to know it's b/c of you.

i guess if i keep asking why all the time shit wont change.

happyness was bealving "4always" could be real. it was a cold thought that kept me worm. i never did the things i wanted to b/c of you and now, when i have the chance, i hate myself.

if you go back and look at my pass jurnals, they are all about one thing.... a life i loved and was to blind to see it made me unhappy. in the end i see that now. but, there is always a but, i wish so hard that i could make you want this empty sell i call my life........

wow it's the 27th. a date that has never gone unloved in over 3years.

i want my love back now

cold thoughts keep me worm when you're not around.
sweetiyvie:
Aw hun.......a broken heart is the worst feeling in the world. I have had a few too many myself. (3) Ugh. Nothing will take the pain away, and you feel like puke skull robot everyday for what seems like forever.
Then one day you will laugh, a real heartfelt laugh...and your pain will ease just a bit. But that first laugh is like a worm eating all the muck away, the cloud will lift and your burden will lighten with each passing day.
Just give yourself time, May take months..even longer. My last heartbreak took me 3/4 years to heal, allthough the hardest part lasted about 9 months.
Be patient and know that one day, even though it may seem so unreal now, you will be back to your old self again.
kiss
glassheart:
i thought about you on the 27th as well.

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