thetrooper

i'm not dealing with this vary well at all.........


"Relax, turn around and take my hand." really, please

p.s. i'm geting drunk now. it's so not me, but i hut so bad! so fuck bad. i just don't know how 2 deal. "i wish you were here"
i wish for alot of things. most of all you b/c i can't have you. or sall i say you wont have me. ya, i'll say that, you wont have me. if you would just give me one chance, just one more go. just one. i did pick up that one night. all i ask is one more go. and i'll "show you the worl in my eyes". just like you loved it! you know u did. (i'm drunk) i know and u know we both love eachother so much. 4 that we should just try. i need 2 change, i need you here and i need "my poodle". poodle such a great name. i see them all the time and almost cry. it's so bad. if u read this call me, please. i need what i have loved for so long. i lost it and saw it leave my life and can still fell u you. thats why it's so hard. this is so hard. i love u so much b/c you're not a dip-shit, b/c you hot, b/c you're you, b/c you love/loved me, b/c you are life, b/c you never take no for an answer, b/c you know so much, b/c you need me, ya b/c you need me.
i was always there. and it hurts 2 not be there. poodle i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u.

god i'm drunk, i hate it and love it. i don't car if this is the right thing or not. i want you in my life. i was alway more than your bestfriend! i was your life. then i killed it. that hurts so bad. (wow i type so much drunk) yay!

i am safe, i am home, i am alone.
"death, death, death"

i love teem sleep, (just got that, lol)

love me please, come home were you know you feel safe. come home 2 the tent. come home to love. feel 4always. live it, love it need it. i know i need it and want it.


ok i'm done. more alc 6% yay

sleep and wishing u were with me is all thenight has instore 4 me now.

*kiss*

marc-