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Good last couple of days. I've been productive at work and also been stress free which is my goal just to take things day by day. So it seems like I'm reaching all my little goals. Which is defanitly helping me stay motivated and helping my self esteeem. I just needed to kick my own ass and hear it from a few people.

I got dunkin tonight at 1130 and they were throwing away all the doughnuts I got 2 for free. I then accidently spilt my coffee all over myself. So they gave me another one for free as well. Fucking sweeeet.

My friend is leaving dream house to get a loan officer postion therefore another loan officer postion will open up at dream house....I"m tempted to ask for it but I doin't know if thats a wise decsion dince I just took SOO MUCH time out. But I know I could do the job. If I got loan officer I could completly change my life no more worries about money. I could get off disabitlty. I wouldn't have time to be depressed becuase I'd be working all the time. But thats Ok I like work. It would just be such a huge deal for me. I actually may even have to move becuaes I may be making to much money to be living where I currnetly live. That would suck and be soo cool at the same time because I know that I'd be doing that well.

But thats just a pipe dream right now. As of right now I"m doing really good where I am and the hours and pay is OK.

I"m putting way to much stress on myself about my stupid inspspection on thursday but I can't help it. I"ve never done these things except for the marines and back then it seemed allot easier. I just want to make sure my house is clean enough. I mean its not like I have trash littered across the floor and bugs all over the place but its not like perfcet so I don't know. I'm just anxious about it. Any advice from you guys on mellowing out on that would be helpful... actually got a headache thinking about it tonight.

So thats it......sorry its not more intersitng...maybe tomorrow I'll start plotting world domination or someting