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Tuesday Oct 11, 2005

Oct 11, 2005
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sleeping pills, second dates and tire troubles.

Well today was cold, wet, and rainy...and thats how I'm going to look at the day. It wasn't too good but I'm going to let it all wash away and tomorrow start all over again. I think thats a nice healthy attitude towards this ongoing struggle with ourselves called life.

I missed my tire appointment, missed my doctor appointment, talked to dawn and missed the mark again on getting a second date and work was miserable. So why should i bother trying. Because tomorrow is another day, that could be filled with wonderful surprises and very good things.

I could look at the plus side of things too....at least I'm still talking to Dawn, she hasn't just blown off my phone calls or anything like that. I went to work.....3 weeks ago I was so depressed I wasn't even doing that. And I didn't get any more flats today..see how easy that was just change the day around and it all comes up better.

Yea my job may suck and I may hate it, but right now its all I got so I have to start at least grit and bariing with it. Hell it could get worse....I could get fired. Then what? We all want jobs we love but sometimes we make sacrafices just so we can survive for alittle while longer. Thats what I'm doing right now......do I want to do it in 3 years? No I want to be someplace that I love. and right now I don't even know where that is....do I love money more or is there a job out there I can truly gwake up to and love every morning.

But who knows...I could just be talking jibberish becuase of my sleeping pills...which reminds me I have to get up for 7am and its almost 2 shocked

So that leads me to my final thought....when life hands you a lemon...don't just smile and make lemonade becuase we all know that smile is fake and phony and eventully people will see though it. Insted cut it up and put it in a bloody mary and just enjoy being alive and doing the best you can every day because when we're dead and gone that's all that matters what we did.

Tony Mucci <-----misses his sidekick Jacob Maynard ooo aaa
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callisto:
in reply to your question.. those pics were taken about 2 years ago wink you really want to see how young i can look?

taken march 05

[Edited on Oct 12, 2005 7:49PM]
Oct 12, 2005
callisto:
smile *lol*

Most of the modelling work i do is Lolita stuff wink If you ever checked out the rest of my site you'll pretty much see that. But that pic/dress in particular makes me look reallly young. Infact the staff at the stately home we were shooting at asked the photog if i was over 16 wink
Oct 12, 2005

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