what do i do now?

there has always been one thing in my life thats been a constant
but now at an abrupt moment it ends for a time i do not konw
i think back on these times i have had
and i know i show lack of compassion and dedication
deep inside i know how i feel
the love
the pain
its all the same feeling
and a stop sign fell from the sky and landed in my icy world
i am clueless on what to do from here
broken and helpless
bitter with anger
i so long to replay that exact moment
each second i breath
i wonder and think
what to do now
i feel robbed and left with nothing
so early before the first leaf has fallen from a tree
of the season
no mircles today
with karma crawling up my spine
it caught up to me
stopped me from what i beleived in
what i strived for

now what i do have?