Wearing down...

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Today is the first night in a month that I feel like I am starting to wear down. I have been pushing myself a lot these last few months. Trying to make up for the lack of work and the ever impending March 5th date that looms in the distance. I have put a lot of work in on myself that I am starting to...
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theslowrunner:
@lissome Yeah, I never thought that I would have a problem eating enough. I always worried about eating too much. Now I have to worry about not eating enough and it's a weird change in my mindset. I'm just glad that I can put the past behind me and focus on myself like you said. You really did help me out earlier. I don't think you know how much I needed to hear those words. Thank you. 
almost_missed:
You can do it bro! I usually tell peeps if a short guy like me can go through 2 years of national service I'm sure you can do better than me. All the best! 加油! 

The Runners High.

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I lot of things have been happening very quick in my life. I guess that can all be attributed to the time I have left before I join the service. I got into the Marine Corps about a month ago and now working on getting myself physically ready for the trials of boot. I have to lose another 10-15 pounds. I also need to work...
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rubblerocks:
Good luck dude!  It's good to see someone putting themselves out there more and risking rejection.  It's something I've got to work on a bit myself.
dragonfyre:
Good Luck! And honestly I wish I had half the courage to tell someone I like them. So many kudos on that! Good luck on your marine journey and thanks for being willing to serve

I'm just so frustated sometimes.

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There is a lot going on in my life right now. I'm sure there is a lot going on in everyone's life but for me it's starting to become very difficult to stand.

I quit my job. I put my two weeks in since I was just not willing to allow myself to be in a toxic environment. It was near poison to go to
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rubblerocks:
Thanks for the comment.  So you have a lot going on at the moment as well, eh? Congrats on joining the Marines; that's one hell of a choice.  Good luck with the whole legal mess of the accident.   And I've got nothing about the girl;  I'm kind of a mess when it comes to romance.  Everything is going to be OK. (I keep telling myself)

Starve the Ego, Feed the Soul.

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I found a song just recently that captures how I am feeling lately. I have been becoming melancholy during the nights before bed. It's strange but most of it comes from too much thinking. I think about my day and if I have done well with the time I am given. I think about my Ex who for some reason I have split a while...
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aeterna:
I wish I had half of your motivation.
theslowrunner:
@ekka I have to admit I am really proud of these pictures. With a special focus on the first one. It just seems wonderful. I print it out and frame it when I get a chance. 

Down a lot...I mean a lot!

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I hopped on the scale today and was surprised to finally see how much I dropped. I used to be over 300 pounds. It was a hard time. I was the chubby boy who was desperate and lonely. I wanted and needed attention from any person I could.

Today, I hopped on that scale and found myself at the smaller end of 210. My scale
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paleothea:
Keep on trucking. Do everything for yourself not anyone else.
theslowrunner:
@paleothea It's strange but for the first time I am truly doing something just for myself. Thank you though. I will keep trying to barrel through all of this. Hoping to run my first Half Marathon some day. Maybe a full one! :-D 

Love lost and not found.

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Ran my first 5k on Friday.

It hasn't been long since I have been in a relationship. I just want to preface that before I go on my little spiel.

It's been a while since I have fallen for someone. I haven't found someone as breathtakingly beautiful as I did my ex. I'm not saying that there are not any I have seen but.. You
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betel:
Congrats on the 5K =D
lissome:
I'm sorry to hear you're hurting... Things will get better, trust me. Time has a way of healing some scars, to at least some extent, and it's not always immediate. It is EXCELLENT that you are working on self-improvement! A 5k?? That's amazing! Perhaps this is a prime time in your life when you should be focusing on YOU. Not girls, or dating. Or finding love. You are loved far more than you could ever know by a great number of people, so don't let one person make you feel unloved or unworthy of love. I've been there too. Do NOT listen to the little acidulous bastard in your head... It's okay to be single. When the time is right, you will have what is meant to be. Whether it's for that just time or beyond... In the meantime, you have to be willing to let go. Allow yourself to be open and available to all the gifts that await for you in the future.

Weekly cheat day blogs?

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So, I just had my cheat day again last night. It looks like it's going to be every Thursday this is going to happen. Sometimes I hope that I could just live without having to eat dirty once in a while. Eat clean and train hard. That was my motto for this year. This time it was the best Chinese food I could have found.
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medicstudent:
If I had landscape like that I'd exercise outside more often! Also that podcast finally went up the other day, the link is in my newest blog. Don't worry too much about cheat days with the progress you've made 87lbs is good hard work.  So once and a while won't slow you down too much. I'm down 40 myself from 265 to 225 in nearly a year so  keep up your hard work.
desiree:
Thank you for following me!!

Cheat days!

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So, yesterday was my cheat meals.

And oh damn did I go all out!!

A tall beer

Chips and Salsa

Five Spicy Garlic Boneless Wings

Five Honey BBQ Wings

and then the most amazing thing that I have had in a long time.

Korean Shaved Ice.

It had apples, strawberry, Kiwi, Mooshi, and I don't know what else but it was all too good. I
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kas:
amazingly none! but i did get drooled on

Tuesday Oct 01, 2013

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kas:
to become a funeral director :)
pandorasshadow:
Thank You!

Sunday Sep 29, 2013

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Five days a week.

That is what I convinced myself to do every single week. That no matter what five days a week I would push myself as hard as I can for one to two hours at a time. That has been enough so far and it has helped out a lot. Not only do I lose weight from this but I lose myself...
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kas:
good for you. I wish I was as motivated smile
kas:
wow! those are some strong motivators! I'm sure your grandfather would be proud of you for all your progress. And I'm sure karma will bite your ex in the rear someday!
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