I am my own worst critic. It is something that I should be a little more forgiving of to myself. I have done incredible things in my life and things others could have only dreamed of. I've lost an incredible amount of weight, I have joined the military, I have explored and seen the world. Thing is I am so harsh to myself. Despite losing all that weight and extending my life by decades I still hate myself for how ugly I think I am. I have joined the military and am in incredible shape but I compare myself to others who are in essence are gifted with amazing ability. I have been to Japan, Mexico, Canada, Taiwan, Australia and snowboarded on Mt. Fuji but I feel like I have done so little in my life. Why? Because I compare my life and experience with others and I always am critical of myself. I shouldn't be....I am who I am and what I have done in my eyes is incredible. I love to volunteer and show my daughter that life in this world is about giving to others. I love to run for miles and just get lost inside of my head. (Truthfully, I listen to Horror Stories while I run.) I love Dungeons and Dragons. Spending time with friends and just allowing yourself to not worry about what they think about you and spend time together. There are so many things that other people hate that I do but I love it. I love being strange, kind, dorky and just me....One thing I will always remember is that we cannot give to others what we do not have ourselves. I want my daughter to love herself, I want her to be strong and I want her to kind. I cannot teach/give her these things without having them myself. Self realization is a crazy thing isn't it?
