It's always surprising who is willing to say good bye and who conviently ignores you. Since I'm leaving in less then three weeks I thought I would be able to say good bye to a lot do important people on my life. Some friends that I had not seen in a while. That's when I started to be surprised on who was willing so far to come and spend time with me before I leave. It becomes all too clear how shallow friendships become when you spend time apart and start to hear less from a person. Someone who you thought meant the world to you all of a sudden is too busy to spend time without food or liquor being involved and others who you hadn't seen in a while want to spend time no matter what is involved. It makes me rethink things and who I want to keep in my life. Maybe I just involve myself a little too much for my own good.
I was going to write about why I joined SG in the first place. The inspiration struck me last night when I saw a post about why a hopeful wants to be an SG. I then started to think about why I joined the site. I can't honestly say it's because of the community. I didn't know how welcoming it great the user base was until I arrived. I think truly that's the only reason why I pay for the website each year. When I joined I was around 19 years old. Fresh put of highschool and horny as all hell. I had this strange idea that I would find an SO on this site that would love me more than I loves myself. Now I know that it's not possible for that to happen. What I did end up finding was a community of people who I quickly became invested in. As I grew older I started to realize that I couldn't find and put comeplete faith in another person, program, website or identity that would affirm who I was to myself. It's one of the harder things to learn now being 25 year old man who is going on a strange/hard adventure soon. Though, I hope it's something I feel like I have learned not too late.
