There is a lot going on in my life right now. I'm sure there is a lot going on in everyone's life but for me it's starting to become very difficult to stand.

I quit my job. I put my two weeks in since I was just not willing to allow myself to be in a toxic environment. It was near poison to go to the job everyday and I could feel myself turning into someone I did not like. It's tough to take the risk of jumping head first into something new but I had to do it.

I got into an accident the same day that I put in my two weeks. It wasn't my fault since the man was riding an electric standing scooter at night. He tired to pass me on the right as I turned into my driveway. Bam! He hit my car. Circumstances started to build and now I have this to deal with.

Lastly, I am in the process of trying to prove myself to join the Marine Corps. Which is going well so far but...I am so out of shape. I took the ASVAB which is the military placement exam. For the Marine Corps you need a 35 to be accepted and then a 50 for higher MOS (Military Occupational Specialty). I did a lot better than what was needed garnering a 94. All of this wouldn't be a problem if I wasn't dealing with teenagers during most of the PT that I am going through.

Oh one more thing...This might be the biggest. I'm pretty sure that I am falling in love with my best friend. I have known her since I was in high school. We haven't been close until a couple of years ago. I was there for her when she needed a friend during the divorce from her arranged marriage. I have kept in close contact with her ever since. It wasn't until a month or two ago that I started to develop feelings for her. I think she likes me too but we both know that nothing is going to happen. She comes from a deeply Muslim family and our cultures make it really difficult. She is so kind to me, so warm, so beautiful and I barely help myself when we are watching movies together to just want to hold her hand.I know that if given the chance I would do my very best to make her happy. When we spend time together I am the happiest I have been in a long time. It breaks my heart.

Death Cab for Cutie - Lightness (Demo)Death Cab for Cutie - Lightness (Demo)

I can't get enough of the new Demo songs from Death Cab.