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Looking at old pictures makes me miss my hair. Fuck. I got a haircut today too so that is pretty lame!
I should return to goldylocks one day.





And here is me in 1995. Rocking the greatest shirt on earth no doubt.



Also, here are the writings of my 17 year old mind. Found these in a journal today. 4 years ago seems way longer. Enjoy the poems of a rebellious teenager

Grab on, take me to the ground,
Just know it all comes around,
Fearing that which is the sound,
The sound of revenge hunting like a hound.

Go on, play your little game,
Dont realise its fucking lame,
Better not forget our name,
We are those that will bring you shame.

HATE
Yeah i got your hate,
Punishment call that which is your fate.

FEAR
Yeah your fear is here,
Better hide as i'm drawing near.

We are the pain that will never end,
Goodbye problems, quick descend.


Fuck it, do your drugs,
Hang out with your thugs,
Dont expect gentle hugs,
We'll stomp you with our lugz.

Man up, beat your wife,
Hold her down, while you strife,
Dont dare grab that knife,
Stuck with us for the rest of your life.

FIGHT
Put up a fight,
To straighten you is our delight.

STUMBLE
Try not to stumble,
Take your stupidy make it crumble.

Drain you of your dumb mistakes,
In this life theres no retakes.

To all of you who havnt earned,
Let this lesson be well learned.

We are the pain that will never end,
A helping hand we will lend.

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Trapped inside these dreams,
No one around to hear my screams.
Through my window the sun still beams,
When will i find out whats on the other side?

On this floor i lay,
Caught up in yesterday,
Looking for the words to say,
Why did i choose this place to hide?

The only thoughts that fill my head are the ones that left me dead.
RECLUSION INTRUSION.
The only scenes looked at through these eyes are the ones that left me blind.
RECLUSION INTRUSION.

Living this life that dosnt mean a thing,
No one ever calls the phones never ring,
Take my soul put it in a sling,
Will i ever find someone to care?

Should i stand up and walk,
No one will smile no one will talk,
Problems leave a stain like powder from the chalk,
To save this life does anyone dare?

The only thoughts that fill my head are the ones that left me dead.
RECLUSION INTRUSION.
The only scenes looked at through these eyes are the ones that left me blind.
RECLUSION INTRUSION.


Everyday i wake up and live this life of delusion,
Oh god thanks for this reclusion intrusion.

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"Soulful Mannequins"

Anxiety sets in again,
our souls are theirs to win.

Faces covered with white mask.
To control our lives the only task.

Tell us they mean no harm,
Kill as we send alarm.

Throw us in our cell,
Leaders of their own hell.

Chorus:
Just when i think this shit will end,
they bust down my door again.

Stick the needle in my face,
feel my heart start to race.

Clinch as my veins fill with fear,
something tells me death is near.
(Chorus End)

Watching the clock as it ticks,
Laying there taking licks.

What did i do to get me here,
The answer is far from clear.

Limbs no longer god's creation,
Their success calls for celebration.

Chorus:
Just when i think this shit will end,
They knock down my door again.

Stick the needle in my face,
Feel my heart start to race

Clinch as my veins fill with fear,
something tells me death is near.

No longer their concern,
Feel my body begin to burn.


That is all. Talk to me peeeps!