Snow falls in Asheville today as I begin a 7 month project. I will just call it project so as not to write myself out of motivation but it is a doozy and yet not.
For the past few weeks I've been struggling with existential dilemmas brought on in someways by a girl but yet not. I went to many profs and asked them questions and they told me I have good questions but couldn't answer them as they were perhaps unanswerable. Yesterday I walked and talked for an hour and a half with a quaker anthro prof and was able to work through alot of it. Don't get too serious over it. And last night I stumbled accross the concept of "satori" something I had already begun to describe myself as a sublime moment. I think life is just moments to enjoy. work hard and don't cause harm, but the reward is in the small bits, the falling cherry blossom, the snow falling on cedars, the white sheets of a lovers bed and her in the shower.
And the strange thing here is I think my sexuality may be changeing. not in preffernce but in expression. I think I might lay off the incessant hunt for new partners. but then the time I spent on that has to be used wisely. and here we are again on the project.
Illusions can be useful. this has freed me from a problem of truth in transfer, that is to say not using tricks to persuade. I wonder.
Kensho
http://sped2work.tripod.com/satori.html
The following six points on Satori are from D.T. Suzuki's
An Introduction to Zen Buddhism:
"2. Without the attainment of Satori no one can enter into the
truth of Zen. Satori is the sudden flashing into consciousness of
a new truth hitherto undreamed of. It is a sort of mental
catastrophe taking place all at once, after much piling up of
matters intellectual and demonstrative. The piling has reached a
limit of stability and the whole edifice has come tumbling to the
ground, when, behold, a new heaven is open to full survey. When
the freezing point is reached, water suddenly turns into ice;
the liquid has suddenly turned into a solid body and no
more flows freely. Satori comes upon a man unawares, when he
feels that he has exhausted his whole being. Religiously, it is a
new birth; intellectually, it is the acquiring of a new viewpoint.
The world now appears as if dressed in a new garment, which seems
to cover up all the unsightliness of dualism, which is called
delusion in Buddhist phraseology."
"
Although the above may not seem Satori related specifically, in actuality it is. In clarification, the following by the Enlightened sage Shri Ranjit Maharaj, is offered:
"Therefore, what I say is false, but true, because I speak of That. The address is false but when you reach the goal, it is Reality. In the same way, all the scriptures and the philosophical books are meant only to indicate that point, and when you reach it they become non-existent, empty. Words are false; only the meaning they convey is true. They are illusion, but they give a meaning. Therefore, All Is Illusion, but to understand the illusion, illusion is needed. For example, to remove a thorn in your finger you use another thorn; then you throw both of them away. But if you keep the second thorn which was used to remove the first one, you'll surely be stuck again."
"
For the past few weeks I've been struggling with existential dilemmas brought on in someways by a girl but yet not. I went to many profs and asked them questions and they told me I have good questions but couldn't answer them as they were perhaps unanswerable. Yesterday I walked and talked for an hour and a half with a quaker anthro prof and was able to work through alot of it. Don't get too serious over it. And last night I stumbled accross the concept of "satori" something I had already begun to describe myself as a sublime moment. I think life is just moments to enjoy. work hard and don't cause harm, but the reward is in the small bits, the falling cherry blossom, the snow falling on cedars, the white sheets of a lovers bed and her in the shower.
And the strange thing here is I think my sexuality may be changeing. not in preffernce but in expression. I think I might lay off the incessant hunt for new partners. but then the time I spent on that has to be used wisely. and here we are again on the project.
Illusions can be useful. this has freed me from a problem of truth in transfer, that is to say not using tricks to persuade. I wonder.
Kensho
http://sped2work.tripod.com/satori.html
The following six points on Satori are from D.T. Suzuki's
An Introduction to Zen Buddhism:
"2. Without the attainment of Satori no one can enter into the
truth of Zen. Satori is the sudden flashing into consciousness of
a new truth hitherto undreamed of. It is a sort of mental
catastrophe taking place all at once, after much piling up of
matters intellectual and demonstrative. The piling has reached a
limit of stability and the whole edifice has come tumbling to the
ground, when, behold, a new heaven is open to full survey. When
the freezing point is reached, water suddenly turns into ice;
the liquid has suddenly turned into a solid body and no
more flows freely. Satori comes upon a man unawares, when he
feels that he has exhausted his whole being. Religiously, it is a
new birth; intellectually, it is the acquiring of a new viewpoint.
The world now appears as if dressed in a new garment, which seems
to cover up all the unsightliness of dualism, which is called
delusion in Buddhist phraseology."
"
Although the above may not seem Satori related specifically, in actuality it is. In clarification, the following by the Enlightened sage Shri Ranjit Maharaj, is offered:
"Therefore, what I say is false, but true, because I speak of That. The address is false but when you reach the goal, it is Reality. In the same way, all the scriptures and the philosophical books are meant only to indicate that point, and when you reach it they become non-existent, empty. Words are false; only the meaning they convey is true. They are illusion, but they give a meaning. Therefore, All Is Illusion, but to understand the illusion, illusion is needed. For example, to remove a thorn in your finger you use another thorn; then you throw both of them away. But if you keep the second thorn which was used to remove the first one, you'll surely be stuck again."
"
You should come see Search for Intelligent Signs of Life in the Universe in April at 35 Below. (at Asheville Community Theatre) It might help you answer some of those questions.