a butterfly that flaps its wings
affecting almost everything
the more i hear the orchestra
the more i have something to bring
and now i see you in a beautiful and different light
hes just a man and any damage done will be alright
i hardle ever listen to californication but its been creeping in the cracks of my sphere as of late and shit,...
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affecting almost everything
the more i hear the orchestra
the more i have something to bring
and now i see you in a beautiful and different light
hes just a man and any damage done will be alright
i hardle ever listen to californication but its been creeping in the cracks of my sphere as of late and shit,...
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so stage one of the wings is complete. mad fucking props to joe c for doing such a good job....
my kitty is being soooo friggin cute right now, and purring and rubbing up on me and licking me. i am so blessed.
love to WelNTaod and Elbereth. it was good to see you. thank you for shining your light in my direction.
'we are...
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my kitty is being soooo friggin cute right now, and purring and rubbing up on me and licking me. i am so blessed.
love to WelNTaod and Elbereth. it was good to see you. thank you for shining your light in my direction.
'we are...
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welntaod:
Any opportunity to hang out is a good one! 
Happy to see you, as always & I'll be giving you a buzz tomorrow, m'dear. 
Happy to see you, as always & I'll be giving you a buzz tomorrow, m'dear. 
arachnequarius:
mmmmmmm, i like those additions! in fact, i snuggled into someone's neck last night, and it was divine.
missed poetry day yesterday and i really could care less. im off to jersey this afternoon for my best girls graduation from law school. thats about it.
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robscarlett:
I got reeeeeeeeeal mail!!! 
I'm all kinds of hot now I could burn the skin off a jalapeno pepper.
Thanks lady!!! I'm gonna put this on my wall right next to my Lord of all Homans/Invader Zim mini poster!!
*HUG*
Spanks again!
I'm all kinds of hot now I could burn the skin off a jalapeno pepper.
Thanks lady!!! I'm gonna put this on my wall right next to my Lord of all Homans/Invader Zim mini poster!!
*HUG*
Spanks again!
elorps:
HEE HEE!
HEE HEE!
ok so if you could be anyone of the tellietubbies which one would you be?
i would be dipsy without a doubt. why? THE FUCKING HAT MAN! plus he knows how to dance, he rules!
i would be dipsy without a doubt. why? THE FUCKING HAT MAN! plus he knows how to dance, he rules!
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robscarlett:
Hi. 
I use a combination of ninja magic and lazy skills to avoid being seen. I can't spell out all the details...mostly because of the lazy part.
I'd have to be the flaming baby head in the sky...if anything at all in that eye ripping show.
Take care lady.
I use a combination of ninja magic and lazy skills to avoid being seen. I can't spell out all the details...mostly because of the lazy part.
I'd have to be the flaming baby head in the sky...if anything at all in that eye ripping show.
Take care lady.
lowbrow:
have you seen those new sex toys that look kinda like teletubbies? they are made out of some funky new material, but the colors and shapes remind me of the tubbies. i'm just saying is all.
WE ARE ALL RUNNING FROM OURSELVES
I AM YOU YOU ARE ME WE ARE ONE ETERNALLY
as i face myself i heal the wounds of humanity as a whole. to all my relations...
I AM YOU YOU ARE ME WE ARE ONE ETERNALLY
as i face myself i heal the wounds of humanity as a whole. to all my relations...
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arachnequarius:
of course you have the same one! what else, my dear? 
oh my god ~ the above is perfect! i think i am running away from and to myself at the same time. constantly, but especially today.
oh my god ~ the above is perfect! i think i am running away from and to myself at the same time. constantly, but especially today.
arachnequarius:
well, i am certainly not against double enders! but i would like to be. 
hehe. i looked at the lung diamonds under the scope this morning :thumbup: didnt look all that cool though, just a bunch of dead cells 
yeah! finally gonna chill with the very excellent lowbrow this evening. we have been trying to hook up for awhile but something always folis the plan. should be good...
still healing, processing shit, coming to understand myself on a much...
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yeah! finally gonna chill with the very excellent lowbrow this evening. we have been trying to hook up for awhile but something always folis the plan. should be good...
still healing, processing shit, coming to understand myself on a much...
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arachnequarius:
lovergirl, you will hear from me later today.
elorps:
everybody missed the boat
when they held on to the Goat
of Misery,.........
evetybody held tight
when they looked unto the light
of redemption
and love
and who
I have been
thinking of
of wearing
pink of sundress
how the curvature of lips
meets mine in a bloomy light
I take it forth and strong upright
i cherish thoughts
i chersih sound
i cherish you and how you are
let your love beam glow
under the light you make for it
let your soul full bloom
into an endless habitat
of warmth/.....
and the sounding of the thousand guns of pain
I'll see you then
until the moutains rise again
I'll see you then
yes I AM drunk at 3:05 am,..
and yes EloRPiaN love runs stroong,.
I cannot help
but express some
things
to you....
love
E
xox
when they held on to the Goat
of Misery,.........
evetybody held tight
when they looked unto the light
of redemption
and love
and who
I have been
thinking of
of wearing
pink of sundress
how the curvature of lips
meets mine in a bloomy light
I take it forth and strong upright
i cherish thoughts
i chersih sound
i cherish you and how you are
let your love beam glow
under the light you make for it
let your soul full bloom
into an endless habitat
of warmth/.....
and the sounding of the thousand guns of pain
I'll see you then
until the moutains rise again
I'll see you then
yes I AM drunk at 3:05 am,..
and yes EloRPiaN love runs stroong,.
I cannot help
but express some
things
to you....
love
E
xox
ewwww! ive had a nasty chest cold the past two days and im coughing up the lung diamonds. hehehe, i think im gonna save the next one i hack up and check it out under the microscope :thumbup:
so ren is still in the abyss but ive learned some major shit about myself. stuff thats really ugly and difficult to look at BUT its stuff...
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so ren is still in the abyss but ive learned some major shit about myself. stuff thats really ugly and difficult to look at BUT its stuff...
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king_of_skulls:
Hmmmm, Bowling Friday??? Is that an invitation or are you asking me if i went bowling Friday?
Well, i dont know how i can help you with what you are going thru, but i sure am sending good thoughts and well wishes your way, hoping that you will pull thru this smarter, stronger, and just healthier in general. You know that we love you, and that we are rooting for the mighty mighty retronerd 100%.
Holler at me if you get a chance, i miss talking to you, you know that i do.
Much love (hold the kisses and huggies though),
Well, i dont know how i can help you with what you are going thru, but i sure am sending good thoughts and well wishes your way, hoping that you will pull thru this smarter, stronger, and just healthier in general. You know that we love you, and that we are rooting for the mighty mighty retronerd 100%.
Holler at me if you get a chance, i miss talking to you, you know that i do.
Much love (hold the kisses and huggies though),
oldpunkgirl:
Sounds like things are gonna start getting better for you. It's crazy, but when you take a look at stuff in your life, you can see where some of the shit comes from. The cool thing is...you are not a 5 year-0ld kid. You are a 30 year old WOMAN and you have the control of your life now. Take charge, kick ass girl. See your pattern and change it. It's really your choice. Hope you feel better soon.
To myself:
...and i salute you for your courage
and i appaude your perseverance
and i embrace your faith in the face of adversity of forces that i represent...
and i support you in your trusting
and i commend you for your wisdom
and im amazed by your surrender in the face of threatening forces that i represent
you found creative ways to...
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...and i salute you for your courage
and i appaude your perseverance
and i embrace your faith in the face of adversity of forces that i represent...
and i support you in your trusting
and i commend you for your wisdom
and im amazed by your surrender in the face of threatening forces that i represent
you found creative ways to...
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allied:
I always feel sad and happy when I read your postings, Retro. Thanks.
alienprincess:
I'm definately up for either barnes and nobles or some weasel therapy... however, since we are very short staffed at work, I am working mondays and wed. in addition to fri-sat-sunday, through the end of may, and hopefully in june,(I need the $$) I am free tuesday or thursdays.
This thursday we are going to visit my grandmother, which should be fun, I haven't seen her in quite some time.
SO: that leaves, next tuesday, thursday, or later. I'm also planning on checking out the new haven zen center at some point.new haven zen center schedule
They say they want you to go to walk in meditation instruction first, which is either wed. evening or sunday morning at around 10:00 am. ack! 10:00 am is so early!
I've been really bad about getting to sleep really late. I need to just start making myself get up earlier so I'm tired earlier.
anyway.... time to go to work....
This thursday we are going to visit my grandmother, which should be fun, I haven't seen her in quite some time.
SO: that leaves, next tuesday, thursday, or later. I'm also planning on checking out the new haven zen center at some point.new haven zen center schedule
They say they want you to go to walk in meditation instruction first, which is either wed. evening or sunday morning at around 10:00 am. ack! 10:00 am is so early!
I've been really bad about getting to sleep really late. I need to just start making myself get up earlier so I'm tired earlier.
anyway.... time to go to work....
"i need a big load from the girl zone..."
B]SO UNSEXY
all these little rejections, how they add up quickly
one small sideways look and i feel so ungood
and somewhere along the way i think
i gave you the power to make
me feel the way i thought only my father could
all these little rejections, how they seem so real to me
one...
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B]SO UNSEXY
all these little rejections, how they add up quickly
one small sideways look and i feel so ungood
and somewhere along the way i think
i gave you the power to make
me feel the way i thought only my father could
all these little rejections, how they seem so real to me
one...
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buddha:
I appreciate the offer of the concert, it meant alot to me.
Today was just a hectic day for me, with an early shift at work then Dinner With a couple friends. next time she is around, ill buy the tickets
I appreciate the offer of the concert, it meant alot to me.
Today was just a hectic day for me, with an early shift at work then Dinner With a couple friends. next time she is around, ill buy the tickets
welntaod:
Hooray for random poetic postings! I hope warm New Haven weather has been treating you well, m'dear! We'll have to start wheels working for hanging out & going to Miya's...
fucking christ! every morning this week ive been waking up at 4 am. freaky thin is im not tired during the day. hmmm. anyway, my life is still sucky and im a crazy emotional bitch. fuck, i cant wait till this passes.
lowbrow:
hey, if it's any consolation, i've been there, and it sucks ass. we were together for 15 years, and get this, her name was renata. oh yeah, and she's getting remarried today, ha!
hang in there . . .
hang in there . . .
allied:
This, too, shall pass. Stay strong and kick life's ass! And, check out this cool-as-shit tattoo on one of my SG friends: dirtyprettything.
You have a wonderful weekend beauty. I'm working really late then going away tomorrow.