ewwww! ive had a nasty chest cold the past two days and im coughing up the lung diamonds. hehehe, i think im gonna save the next one i hack up and check it out under the microscope :thumbup:
so ren is still in the abyss but ive learned some major shit about myself. stuff thats really ugly and difficult to look at BUT its stuff that i absolutely must heal because it totally fucks me up, controls me from the most subconscious level. basically in a nutshell, why i end up getting emotionally attached to men that are unavailable to me and dont feel anything for the ones who are available. hmmm, can we say 5 year old child chasing her unavailable father. i know this sounds fucking clique and way too pop-psych but i know its what im doing and well, i have to confront it cause the old behaviors are just causing me pain again and again. not to mention embarrassing me cause i end up acting like a nut case. fuck! how long have i been this off balance folks? coming up on a good two months now and im fucking sick of it. please send in the troops to get strong, stable retro back...
soooooo...in honor of poetry day i am gonna post some lyrics of annie lennox. this song was my fucking anthem for several years. i love it -
i look up to the little bird
that glides across the sky
he sings the clearest melody
it makes me want to cry
it makes me want to sit right down and cry cry cry
i walk along the city streets
so dark with rage and fear
and i...
i wish that i could be that bird
and fly away from here
i wish i had the wings to fly away from here
but my my i feel so low
mymy where do i go?
mymy what do i know?
mymy we reap what we sow
they always said that you knew best
but this little birds fallen out of that nest now
ive got a feeling that i might have been blessed
so ive just got to put these wings to test
for i am just a troubled soul
whos weighted...
weighted to the ground
give me the strength to carry on
till i can lay this burden down
give me the strength to lay this burden down
lay it down
lay it down
but my my i feel so low
mymy where do i go?
mymy what do i know?
mymy we reap what we sow
they always said that you knew best
but this little birds fallen out of that nest now
ive got a feeling that i might have been blessed
so ive just got to put these wings to tes
so ren is still in the abyss but ive learned some major shit about myself. stuff thats really ugly and difficult to look at BUT its stuff that i absolutely must heal because it totally fucks me up, controls me from the most subconscious level. basically in a nutshell, why i end up getting emotionally attached to men that are unavailable to me and dont feel anything for the ones who are available. hmmm, can we say 5 year old child chasing her unavailable father. i know this sounds fucking clique and way too pop-psych but i know its what im doing and well, i have to confront it cause the old behaviors are just causing me pain again and again. not to mention embarrassing me cause i end up acting like a nut case. fuck! how long have i been this off balance folks? coming up on a good two months now and im fucking sick of it. please send in the troops to get strong, stable retro back...
soooooo...in honor of poetry day i am gonna post some lyrics of annie lennox. this song was my fucking anthem for several years. i love it -
i look up to the little bird
that glides across the sky
he sings the clearest melody
it makes me want to cry
it makes me want to sit right down and cry cry cry
i walk along the city streets
so dark with rage and fear
and i...
i wish that i could be that bird
and fly away from here
i wish i had the wings to fly away from here
but my my i feel so low
mymy where do i go?
mymy what do i know?
mymy we reap what we sow
they always said that you knew best
but this little birds fallen out of that nest now
ive got a feeling that i might have been blessed
so ive just got to put these wings to test
for i am just a troubled soul
whos weighted...
weighted to the ground
give me the strength to carry on
till i can lay this burden down
give me the strength to lay this burden down
lay it down
lay it down
but my my i feel so low
mymy where do i go?
mymy what do i know?
mymy we reap what we sow
they always said that you knew best
but this little birds fallen out of that nest now
ive got a feeling that i might have been blessed
so ive just got to put these wings to tes
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Well, i dont know how i can help you with what you are going thru, but i sure am sending good thoughts and well wishes your way, hoping that you will pull thru this smarter, stronger, and just healthier in general. You know that we love you, and that we are rooting for the mighty mighty retronerd 100%.
Holler at me if you get a chance, i miss talking to you, you know that i do.
Much love (hold the kisses and huggies though),