My friend just fucking tried to kill her self. fuckfuck
she's in the hospital. we dont know how she is.
holy hell
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she didnt make it.
i dont know what to do.
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trivial distractions and bourbon make me forget. but I dont want to forget.
she's in the hospital. we dont know how she is.
holy hell
**
she didnt make it.
i dont know what to do.
**
trivial distractions and bourbon make me forget. but I dont want to forget.
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One of my best friends shot herself to death a few years back.
This was someone I knew since I was 3, so she was kind of like a sister.
She was my next door neighbor all of my life, until I grew up and moved away.
I used to see her periodically off and on. She got to meet my daughter a few times before her suicide.
Her parents and my parents never got along though. But we were still friends and hung out all the time.
One Christmas, I went home for a visit, and I saw her car there. I was going to go in and see her, but I felt kind of funny just barging in on someone's Christmas dinner.
I should have. A few days later she was dead. And I never got to say anything to her, ever again.
It was one of the saddest things I have ever been through. I am not totally sure why she did it. She used to tell me never to commit suicide. She used to tell me I would end up in a place called Purgatory....(she went to catholic school)......and I would never go to heaven because of the suicide.
Weird. I can still see us playing in the yard and the trees. And eating ALL of the pickles. Swinging on a rope swing. Like kids do. Putting on makeup. Wearing bras, kissing boys. It's hard to believe this person is no longer here. But, they're not.
Anyway. I know exactly how it feels for this to happen.
And I am truly sorry. I hope you feel better someday, even though you will probably never heal fully.
Again, I am so sorry.
xoxoxo
matty to the b!