therealtexasguy

Not yall!!! I wasnt even there and the control freak in me keeps saying, "Yhis wouldnt have happened if I were there..."

(it literally hurts me to say this, but I know it's true...deep in the pit of my stomach this thought causes me physical pain, like the burning from a couple shots of whiskey into an empty stomach).---God i almost forgot that feeling...i need to be more appreciative of my loved ones...

Personally, the day I realized that no matter what shit keeps happening, I have to keep going, I have to prove them wrong...I think I was okay with life. I realized that my current sole pupose was to protect my and provide for my daughter. She's my drive. But I also needed to understand that it is not MY responsibility to protect and care for everyone else. Too many times I was taking the blame for soemthing that happened in my family becuase I believe my parents are fuck-ups and now that I am not around anymore my siblings are screwed, but I needed to understand that while I can feel compassion and remorse for someone else's misfortune, I am not responsible for them.

I have also survived quite a bit of turmoil in my life. My friends say i need to write a book! But I believe the pay off for my hard work will really be worth it. There are just some of us in this world that are meant to struggle...but I believe if I stick to it and do what I know i should be doing that I'll get exactly what I deserve in the end. And sometimes, sometimes you just hve to let it all out. Scream, punch things, (inanimate and cheap preferrably ), cry and sob and lose your breath. Then take a nap. It feels great afterwards!

Here... <> thats a hug from me to you

Who the hell is Dr. Phil to teach people about dieting? That guy is very obviously not rocking a six-pack. Anyone who wants to give me advice on eating good and dieting and working out better have the body of a Roman gladiator.

Kick Ass Movie Quote of the Week:
"I swear to God, if you don't fuck her I'll kill myself. Please Matt, please, fuck her for me. For me!!"

Guess, I need to do something. Cuz, everythings looking dang shitty right now. Sounds cool...the stuff you are doing. Looking forward to seeing it all go down. Have a great weekend Mr. TexaSGuy. See you soon.

Oh my goodness. You're a Baldurs gate guy.
Well, me too.
BTW, I voted.
I voted for Duke Leto Atreides.

I don't know when it came out, but that's when I came across. I am notoriously uninformed about all things music. An album will usually be out for years before I even know about it.

But, if it makes you feel better, I'm happy to oblige.

Please don't be mad! I am SO freaking sorry! My meeting didn't even start until 7:00, and lasted until around 9:30. Dude, I feel like a tool. Seriously, can I make it up on Monday?- I'm planning to come back sometime that morning. I swear that I am not a bitch- it just wasn't a good night to make plans. Things happen. I truly am sorry.

Fuck this, how long of a commute is it from Nuevo Laredo, Mexico to San Antonio, Texas?

It's not the end of the world. Life will go on. I don't think you have to move to Mexico. Besides, I would never be able to visit you there.

I like my profile pic. Machine Gun Sally is too cute.

I hope God's not in the wholesale business, or Bush might just win this thing.

I am a firm believer in that he who does not vote in the Presidential election does not get to bitch about anything the President does.

You have a choice to make, right or wrong, just have the balls to do it. No one bats a thousand, especially that person who doesn't step up to the plate and try.

Please dont get me started....

you are soooo adorable...thats what i'm going to do....

Oh, and I got a digital camera finally. It's old school as hell (still uses 3.5" floppies), but it totally kicks ass. Takes 15 second videos and all. I got it for free, a gift from my dad when he bought his wife a new one. Kick ass! Now I can start working on a new portfolio!