There's a profile pic shot in Neg. Art. It's admittedly bad, but the lighting sucked and I didn't feel like going through the whole ordeal of setting up my UV lamps and whatnot I have for shooting the good photographs. I like how the SF Giants logo just happened to end up in the bad ground.
Either way, when the lighting is better, and I'm...
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Oh yeah, I found a bunch of my old mp3 CD collections. My neighbors will soon come to loathe "How Soon Is Now" by the Smiths, cause, for some reason, when I'm in a shiftless mood, that's the only song that'll bring me back. And it needs to be all out - full bass, full volume, full teeth shattering effect.
Well, I'm almost at the...
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Fucking hell.
So I'm sitting here, well laying on my living room floor actually, watching a bootleg copy of Donnie Darko and really, really, really, really getting into it. I haven't slept but two hours since like three AM yesterday and I haven't eaten anything in almost sixty hours, yet somehow I can't go to sleep until I see this whole movie again.
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So I'm sitting here, well laying on my living room floor actually, watching a bootleg copy of Donnie Darko and really, really, really, really getting into it. I haven't slept but two hours since like three AM yesterday and I haven't eaten anything in almost sixty hours, yet somehow I can't go to sleep until I see this whole movie again.
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susannahjoy:
why do you post comments in your own journal?
susannahjoy:
good reason 
and so do i. especially when i'm driving.
and so do i. especially when i'm driving.I'm very listless.
Anyone want to go get drunk later this week (whereyouwanttobe I'm looking in your direction)? I need a few stiff drinks and a night away from work and home and my fucking cell phone (how I loathe cellular phones).
Just found my Johnny Cash "Live at Folsom Prison" CD. Fucking awesome shit, that. Love it. To think, all they had to do...
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Anyone want to go get drunk later this week (whereyouwanttobe I'm looking in your direction)? I need a few stiff drinks and a night away from work and home and my fucking cell phone (how I loathe cellular phones).
Just found my Johnny Cash "Live at Folsom Prison" CD. Fucking awesome shit, that. Love it. To think, all they had to do...
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genevieve:
I took the picture, my camera has a timer setting and i just put it on the shelf and snapped. Why was i taking pictures of myself? why does anyone take pictures of themselves? WHy havent you taken a picture of yourself?
therealtexasguy:
HOLY FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!
Why is it of all my cheap bootleg DVDs, the only fucking ones that don't work right are the one's I really want to fucking watch!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Christ. I haven't slept but two hours since three yesterday morning, I haven't eaten in close to sixty something hours, and I'm in this weird daze that's similar to being stoned; so I'm watching Donnie Darko and really, really, really, really getting into it, like usual, and the FUCKING DVD STARTS FUCKING UP!!!!!
On another, more somber, note, I think I'm going to go back to psychotherapy. The more I sit at home smoking cigarettes (well, I just quit, again, so that might explain why I freaked out so much and smashed my fucked up bootleg DVD just now) and listening to old mix CDs, the more I realize I'm worse then ever. Well, not ever, but for a long time. But will I actually go to the appointments? Fucking hell, I can't keep an appointment that's actually important, what about something like this that I really don't want to do?
Why is it of all my cheap bootleg DVDs, the only fucking ones that don't work right are the one's I really want to fucking watch!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Christ. I haven't slept but two hours since three yesterday morning, I haven't eaten in close to sixty something hours, and I'm in this weird daze that's similar to being stoned; so I'm watching Donnie Darko and really, really, really, really getting into it, like usual, and the FUCKING DVD STARTS FUCKING UP!!!!!
On another, more somber, note, I think I'm going to go back to psychotherapy. The more I sit at home smoking cigarettes (well, I just quit, again, so that might explain why I freaked out so much and smashed my fucked up bootleg DVD just now) and listening to old mix CDs, the more I realize I'm worse then ever. Well, not ever, but for a long time. But will I actually go to the appointments? Fucking hell, I can't keep an appointment that's actually important, what about something like this that I really don't want to do?
Fuck this, I need a new life, a new beginning.
Why can't we all just go back to zero and start all over again? Not just as individuals, but as a society, as a people. There are so many mistakes we have, collectively, made that we just can't put behind us.
Either way, I'm going to go for a nice long drive out in the...
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Why can't we all just go back to zero and start all over again? Not just as individuals, but as a society, as a people. There are so many mistakes we have, collectively, made that we just can't put behind us.
Either way, I'm going to go for a nice long drive out in the...
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Just repurchased Dr. Dre's Chronic 2001 (I call it Chronic 2K). This is rap at it's finest, if you ask my humble opinion. Maybe it's just the memories attached from my days hanging out with all my gang banging friends (best years of my life...high all day, every day, making good money, fucking with lots of BEAUTIFUL honeys, and so on).
Just got back from...
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Why is Santa Clause always so jolly?
Because he knows where all the naughty girls live!
I'm upset. My girl is coming into town to go clubbing and wants me to meet up with her. I'm pissed, cause I told her yesterday that I was going to be visiting my grandpa who lives like twenty minutes from her and that I'd swing by and we'd...
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Because he knows where all the naughty girls live!
I'm upset. My girl is coming into town to go clubbing and wants me to meet up with her. I'm pissed, cause I told her yesterday that I was going to be visiting my grandpa who lives like twenty minutes from her and that I'd swing by and we'd...
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magnadolce:
Cripes man... that's a toughy... Hope it all works (worked) out for you.
therealtexasguy:
It didn't work out. I'm not going to go. Just my luck, when I roll up on the front door, she's rolling out of the parking lot with her friends, and I get stuck in a club, by myself, going around looking for her until I feel like such a loser I walk to the nearest bar and get shit faced drunk.
On another note, my cigarettes (Camel Light 100s), some of them are rolled so tight they don't stay lit. What the fuck?
On another note, my cigarettes (Camel Light 100s), some of them are rolled so tight they don't stay lit. What the fuck?
.......
Fuck this, I'll just write a new entry.
So, why is it that women tend to not notice when guys are so obviously interested in them and want to have sex with them?
So my girl has this friend who owns a fast motorcycle, but won't let anyone touch it (and it so protective over it, then when he has to lay it down in...
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So, why is it that women tend to not notice when guys are so obviously interested in them and want to have sex with them?
So my girl has this friend who owns a fast motorcycle, but won't let anyone touch it (and it so protective over it, then when he has to lay it down in...
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genevieve:
trust me...yeah they miss you too...
therealtexasguy:
I found them. They were being held for randsom at the corner store; luckily it was only $3.65 to get 'em back into my possession. 
So I hurt my back, again. Just when it was getting better. I was moving a refrigerator into a house and slipped on a puddle (???) and the fridge landed on me. I realized this is also how I skinned the shit out of my elbow. So tomorrow will be a very painful day, thank you very much General Electric for making your refrigerators so...
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genevieve:
Ditto. 
Yeah, its so hard NOT to flirt...really...he knows it entertains me...maybe i should watch how i entertain myself eh? I dont, i've just been wanting it lately ya know? Wanting to feel that great new thing that happens when you're all crushin and flirtin. I havent had my heart just sink in a long long time. I know, i know, it fades, blah blah. Doesnt mean it doesnt feel good.
Close your eyes
Count to three...
BTW, you really did get a tiny blush out of this gal...
Yeah, its so hard NOT to flirt...really...he knows it entertains me...maybe i should watch how i entertain myself eh? I dont, i've just been wanting it lately ya know? Wanting to feel that great new thing that happens when you're all crushin and flirtin. I havent had my heart just sink in a long long time. I know, i know, it fades, blah blah. Doesnt mean it doesnt feel good.
Close your eyes
Count to three...
BTW, you really did get a tiny blush out of this gal...
therealtexasguy:
ahhhh, the headache!!!! too little nicotine and my brain just freaks out and doesn't know what to do. one minute i'm all happy, and the next i feel like i have an axe in my skull. so to remedy the situation I smoke three menthols back to back...now I don't know if I'm going to pass out, throw up, or die first.... 
fuck this! i'm cleaing this fucking mouse, it's making it impossible to do anything with this stupid computer!
man, the amount of tylenol I consume on a daily basis (mostly for work related injuries cause I'm a fucking IDIOT!) has to be paying someone's salary up at the factory...
see, I started writing this to really say something, and now it escapes me. hmmmm....
fuck it. i'm going to go to the store (is there anything better then shopping at twelve-thirty in the AM???, seriously, it rocks) for some stuff. here's the list;
Paper towels (bulk)
Shower curtain (any)
Bottled Water (one gallon jugs x3)
TV Dinners (have some fun with the variety, just BUY ONES YOU'LL EAT FUCKNUT)
Microwaveable soft pretzels
Bread
Cheddar cheese
the more I think about it, the more I realize this is a shit idea. why do I want to drive allllllll the way over to the twenty-four hour grocery store when I can sit half naked on my living room floor playing San Andreas??
oh, and I need a fucking hair cut. my hair's almost an inch long now...time to trim it down to size...i'd normally just go bald, but I know the second I do the temp will drop to twenty degrees and I'll get fucking bronchitis or some shit again...
fuck this! i'm cleaing this fucking mouse, it's making it impossible to do anything with this stupid computer!
man, the amount of tylenol I consume on a daily basis (mostly for work related injuries cause I'm a fucking IDIOT!) has to be paying someone's salary up at the factory...
see, I started writing this to really say something, and now it escapes me. hmmmm....
fuck it. i'm going to go to the store (is there anything better then shopping at twelve-thirty in the AM???, seriously, it rocks) for some stuff. here's the list;
Paper towels (bulk)
Shower curtain (any)
Bottled Water (one gallon jugs x3)
TV Dinners (have some fun with the variety, just BUY ONES YOU'LL EAT FUCKNUT)
Microwaveable soft pretzels
Bread
Cheddar cheese
the more I think about it, the more I realize this is a shit idea. why do I want to drive allllllll the way over to the twenty-four hour grocery store when I can sit half naked on my living room floor playing San Andreas??
oh, and I need a fucking hair cut. my hair's almost an inch long now...time to trim it down to size...i'd normally just go bald, but I know the second I do the temp will drop to twenty degrees and I'll get fucking bronchitis or some shit again...
Yes, I do agree...lets go out. Sometime soon. Either one sounds peachy with me. You've got to promise that you wont fall in love with me, though. I'm young and beautiful and dying of cancer. But, remember... you don't know that.