I am starting to seriously get worried about my health. Why the fuck do I sweat so much AND am so suseptible to the cold? Yet, my thyroid is supposed to be fine. I know I have a family history of a bad thyroid (my mother doesn't even have one after two boughts with thyroid cancer). Maybe I have cancer or something.
I honestly am not worried about being terminally ill - I'd actually prefer to have a terminal disease then just poor health, cause at least then you know what you're in for. My stomach, for example - I take over $2000 in medications for it, yet they have no fucking idea what's wrong with it. I'd rather it was ulcers or anything, cause at least then I'd fucking know.
See, death is the last thing I fear - it's suffering that bothers me. We are all going to die, and frankly, I could not be more curious about what happens when you die. Did I not fear eternal damnation, I'd have offed myself ten years ago, just to find out what happens when your body dies.
I mean, think about it - if when you die nothing happens, and it's just the end of your entire existence (i.e. no soul), then what the fuck's the point? If I were to kill myself right now (hypothetically) and nothing happened, then a lot of people would bitch and moan about the waste of it all. But, really, would it be wasteful? If we do not carry our memories of this life time into the next (as in there is no next life time), then would it really matter? No.
Maybe I need religion in my life again. Can't say as it helped before, although when I was studying Paganism, I did get a lot out of that. But I mean Christian religion. But, fuckin a, I hate Catholicism and most facets of Christianity. It's all corrupt and about money and bullshit and power. How can I support a church that not only supports, but protects child molesters? The scum of the earth safe in the House of the Lord, while homosexuals are discriminated against by the same people that protect the sexual predators. How the fuck does that make sense? I might not like homosexuality (I'm not exactly homophobic, I just don't like it), but give me a gay priest over a sexual predator any day of the fucking week.
OK, this rant seems to have run it's course.
Check out Astrology.com. That fucking thing blew my mind - it couldn't have been more right about my Capricornism (yes, that is a word - I just made it up right now).
I honestly am not worried about being terminally ill - I'd actually prefer to have a terminal disease then just poor health, cause at least then you know what you're in for. My stomach, for example - I take over $2000 in medications for it, yet they have no fucking idea what's wrong with it. I'd rather it was ulcers or anything, cause at least then I'd fucking know.
See, death is the last thing I fear - it's suffering that bothers me. We are all going to die, and frankly, I could not be more curious about what happens when you die. Did I not fear eternal damnation, I'd have offed myself ten years ago, just to find out what happens when your body dies.
I mean, think about it - if when you die nothing happens, and it's just the end of your entire existence (i.e. no soul), then what the fuck's the point? If I were to kill myself right now (hypothetically) and nothing happened, then a lot of people would bitch and moan about the waste of it all. But, really, would it be wasteful? If we do not carry our memories of this life time into the next (as in there is no next life time), then would it really matter? No.
Maybe I need religion in my life again. Can't say as it helped before, although when I was studying Paganism, I did get a lot out of that. But I mean Christian religion. But, fuckin a, I hate Catholicism and most facets of Christianity. It's all corrupt and about money and bullshit and power. How can I support a church that not only supports, but protects child molesters? The scum of the earth safe in the House of the Lord, while homosexuals are discriminated against by the same people that protect the sexual predators. How the fuck does that make sense? I might not like homosexuality (I'm not exactly homophobic, I just don't like it), but give me a gay priest over a sexual predator any day of the fucking week.
OK, this rant seems to have run it's course.
Check out Astrology.com. That fucking thing blew my mind - it couldn't have been more right about my Capricornism (yes, that is a word - I just made it up right now).
therealtexasguy:
Besides the greed and cultism most churches exihibit, another big problem I have is the fucking singing! Ugh! I fucking hate church singing! I hate it worse then tejano music! Why can't you go to a house of worship and not be subjected to a 100 people singing, none of whom can carry a tune?