Fucking hell.
So I'm sitting here, well laying on my living room floor actually, watching a bootleg copy of Donnie Darko and really, really, really, really getting into it. I haven't slept but two hours since like three AM yesterday and I haven't eaten anything in almost sixty hours, yet somehow I can't go to sleep until I see this whole movie again.
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So I'm sitting here, well laying on my living room floor actually, watching a bootleg copy of Donnie Darko and really, really, really, really getting into it. I haven't slept but two hours since like three AM yesterday and I haven't eaten anything in almost sixty hours, yet somehow I can't go to sleep until I see this whole movie again.
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susannahjoy:
why do you post comments in your own journal?
susannahjoy:
good reason 
and so do i. especially when i'm driving.
and so do i. especially when i'm driving.I'm very listless.
Anyone want to go get drunk later this week (whereyouwanttobe I'm looking in your direction)? I need a few stiff drinks and a night away from work and home and my fucking cell phone (how I loathe cellular phones).
Just found my Johnny Cash "Live at Folsom Prison" CD. Fucking awesome shit, that. Love it. To think, all they had to do...
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Anyone want to go get drunk later this week (whereyouwanttobe I'm looking in your direction)? I need a few stiff drinks and a night away from work and home and my fucking cell phone (how I loathe cellular phones).
Just found my Johnny Cash "Live at Folsom Prison" CD. Fucking awesome shit, that. Love it. To think, all they had to do...
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genevieve:
I took the picture, my camera has a timer setting and i just put it on the shelf and snapped. Why was i taking pictures of myself? why does anyone take pictures of themselves? WHy havent you taken a picture of yourself?
therealtexasguy:
HOLY FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!
Why is it of all my cheap bootleg DVDs, the only fucking ones that don't work right are the one's I really want to fucking watch!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Christ. I haven't slept but two hours since three yesterday morning, I haven't eaten in close to sixty something hours, and I'm in this weird daze that's similar to being stoned; so I'm watching Donnie Darko and really, really, really, really getting into it, like usual, and the FUCKING DVD STARTS FUCKING UP!!!!!
On another, more somber, note, I think I'm going to go back to psychotherapy. The more I sit at home smoking cigarettes (well, I just quit, again, so that might explain why I freaked out so much and smashed my fucked up bootleg DVD just now) and listening to old mix CDs, the more I realize I'm worse then ever. Well, not ever, but for a long time. But will I actually go to the appointments? Fucking hell, I can't keep an appointment that's actually important, what about something like this that I really don't want to do?
Why is it of all my cheap bootleg DVDs, the only fucking ones that don't work right are the one's I really want to fucking watch!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Christ. I haven't slept but two hours since three yesterday morning, I haven't eaten in close to sixty something hours, and I'm in this weird daze that's similar to being stoned; so I'm watching Donnie Darko and really, really, really, really getting into it, like usual, and the FUCKING DVD STARTS FUCKING UP!!!!!
On another, more somber, note, I think I'm going to go back to psychotherapy. The more I sit at home smoking cigarettes (well, I just quit, again, so that might explain why I freaked out so much and smashed my fucked up bootleg DVD just now) and listening to old mix CDs, the more I realize I'm worse then ever. Well, not ever, but for a long time. But will I actually go to the appointments? Fucking hell, I can't keep an appointment that's actually important, what about something like this that I really don't want to do?
Fuck this, I need a new life, a new beginning.
Why can't we all just go back to zero and start all over again? Not just as individuals, but as a society, as a people. There are so many mistakes we have, collectively, made that we just can't put behind us.
Either way, I'm going to go for a nice long drive out in the...
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Why can't we all just go back to zero and start all over again? Not just as individuals, but as a society, as a people. There are so many mistakes we have, collectively, made that we just can't put behind us.
Either way, I'm going to go for a nice long drive out in the...
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Just repurchased Dr. Dre's Chronic 2001 (I call it Chronic 2K). This is rap at it's finest, if you ask my humble opinion. Maybe it's just the memories attached from my days hanging out with all my gang banging friends (best years of my life...high all day, every day, making good money, fucking with lots of BEAUTIFUL honeys, and so on).
Just got back from...
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Why is Santa Clause always so jolly?
Because he knows where all the naughty girls live!
I'm upset. My girl is coming into town to go clubbing and wants me to meet up with her. I'm pissed, cause I told her yesterday that I was going to be visiting my grandpa who lives like twenty minutes from her and that I'd swing by and we'd...
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Because he knows where all the naughty girls live!
I'm upset. My girl is coming into town to go clubbing and wants me to meet up with her. I'm pissed, cause I told her yesterday that I was going to be visiting my grandpa who lives like twenty minutes from her and that I'd swing by and we'd...
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magnadolce:
Cripes man... that's a toughy... Hope it all works (worked) out for you.
therealtexasguy:
It didn't work out. I'm not going to go. Just my luck, when I roll up on the front door, she's rolling out of the parking lot with her friends, and I get stuck in a club, by myself, going around looking for her until I feel like such a loser I walk to the nearest bar and get shit faced drunk.
On another note, my cigarettes (Camel Light 100s), some of them are rolled so tight they don't stay lit. What the fuck?
On another note, my cigarettes (Camel Light 100s), some of them are rolled so tight they don't stay lit. What the fuck?
.......
Fuck this, I'll just write a new entry.
So, why is it that women tend to not notice when guys are so obviously interested in them and want to have sex with them?
So my girl has this friend who owns a fast motorcycle, but won't let anyone touch it (and it so protective over it, then when he has to lay it down in...
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So, why is it that women tend to not notice when guys are so obviously interested in them and want to have sex with them?
So my girl has this friend who owns a fast motorcycle, but won't let anyone touch it (and it so protective over it, then when he has to lay it down in...
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genevieve:
trust me...yeah they miss you too...
therealtexasguy:
I found them. They were being held for randsom at the corner store; luckily it was only $3.65 to get 'em back into my possession. 
So I hurt my back, again. Just when it was getting better. I was moving a refrigerator into a house and slipped on a puddle (???) and the fridge landed on me. I realized this is also how I skinned the shit out of my elbow. So tomorrow will be a very painful day, thank you very much General Electric for making your refrigerators so...
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genevieve:
Ditto. 
Yeah, its so hard NOT to flirt...really...he knows it entertains me...maybe i should watch how i entertain myself eh? I dont, i've just been wanting it lately ya know? Wanting to feel that great new thing that happens when you're all crushin and flirtin. I havent had my heart just sink in a long long time. I know, i know, it fades, blah blah. Doesnt mean it doesnt feel good.
Close your eyes
Count to three...
BTW, you really did get a tiny blush out of this gal...
Yeah, its so hard NOT to flirt...really...he knows it entertains me...maybe i should watch how i entertain myself eh? I dont, i've just been wanting it lately ya know? Wanting to feel that great new thing that happens when you're all crushin and flirtin. I havent had my heart just sink in a long long time. I know, i know, it fades, blah blah. Doesnt mean it doesnt feel good.
Close your eyes
Count to three...
BTW, you really did get a tiny blush out of this gal...
therealtexasguy:
ahhhh, the headache!!!! too little nicotine and my brain just freaks out and doesn't know what to do. one minute i'm all happy, and the next i feel like i have an axe in my skull. so to remedy the situation I smoke three menthols back to back...now I don't know if I'm going to pass out, throw up, or die first.... 
fuck this! i'm cleaing this fucking mouse, it's making it impossible to do anything with this stupid computer!
man, the amount of tylenol I consume on a daily basis (mostly for work related injuries cause I'm a fucking IDIOT!) has to be paying someone's salary up at the factory...
see, I started writing this to really say something, and now it escapes me. hmmmm....
fuck it. i'm going to go to the store (is there anything better then shopping at twelve-thirty in the AM???, seriously, it rocks) for some stuff. here's the list;
Paper towels (bulk)
Shower curtain (any)
Bottled Water (one gallon jugs x3)
TV Dinners (have some fun with the variety, just BUY ONES YOU'LL EAT FUCKNUT)
Microwaveable soft pretzels
Bread
Cheddar cheese
the more I think about it, the more I realize this is a shit idea. why do I want to drive allllllll the way over to the twenty-four hour grocery store when I can sit half naked on my living room floor playing San Andreas??
oh, and I need a fucking hair cut. my hair's almost an inch long now...time to trim it down to size...i'd normally just go bald, but I know the second I do the temp will drop to twenty degrees and I'll get fucking bronchitis or some shit again...
fuck this! i'm cleaing this fucking mouse, it's making it impossible to do anything with this stupid computer!
man, the amount of tylenol I consume on a daily basis (mostly for work related injuries cause I'm a fucking IDIOT!) has to be paying someone's salary up at the factory...
see, I started writing this to really say something, and now it escapes me. hmmmm....
fuck it. i'm going to go to the store (is there anything better then shopping at twelve-thirty in the AM???, seriously, it rocks) for some stuff. here's the list;
Paper towels (bulk)
Shower curtain (any)
Bottled Water (one gallon jugs x3)
TV Dinners (have some fun with the variety, just BUY ONES YOU'LL EAT FUCKNUT)
Microwaveable soft pretzels
Bread
Cheddar cheese
the more I think about it, the more I realize this is a shit idea. why do I want to drive allllllll the way over to the twenty-four hour grocery store when I can sit half naked on my living room floor playing San Andreas??
oh, and I need a fucking hair cut. my hair's almost an inch long now...time to trim it down to size...i'd normally just go bald, but I know the second I do the temp will drop to twenty degrees and I'll get fucking bronchitis or some shit again...
This not smoking thing is going as bad today as it did yesterday. Like I said, if I didn't flush 'em I'd end up smoking the rest of the pack, and I never got around to flushing it, so here I am smoking it.
Shit. I ate some homemade chili last night. Fucking awesome stuff, but the way I make it it always gives me...
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Shit. I ate some homemade chili last night. Fucking awesome stuff, but the way I make it it always gives me...
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therealtexasguy:
OK, so I tried the baby slapping and all it got me was a face full of mace....*shrug*
Why does Kasara look so eerily similiar to a family friend of mine?? If she was blown and dressed as a cowgirl, they'd be identical.
So I'm renting a house tonight. They're paying $3041.60 to move in!!
fuckin a, I barely put that much down on my truck, and now I OWN that motherfucker...course they won't have to pay rent until March 05 now.
Man, that chili is still kicking my ass. I'll be driving along and suddenly almost vomit. Like, it'll be up in my throat and everything and I'm kind of like "where the fuck did that come from!?!?".
Any ways, I hurt my back even worse today (just after it started getting better), I quit smoking and now have a horrid headache, my stomach is so upset (still) that I won't be able to eat tonight (fuckin great), I somehow managed to skin my entire elbow and now my favorite shirts all bloody.
On the good side I....well.....??? OH! There is a good side! I'm going fishing tonight (maybe) and now have a very good reason to get stoned on pain killers tomorrow (for all my talk of it I haven't touched 'em in a while).
Christ! My very fat neighbor upstairs is stumbling around. Sounds like a fucking elephant trying to stomp on a god damn mouse!
Why does Kasara look so eerily similiar to a family friend of mine?? If she was blown and dressed as a cowgirl, they'd be identical.
So I'm renting a house tonight. They're paying $3041.60 to move in!!
fuckin a, I barely put that much down on my truck, and now I OWN that motherfucker...course they won't have to pay rent until March 05 now.
Man, that chili is still kicking my ass. I'll be driving along and suddenly almost vomit. Like, it'll be up in my throat and everything and I'm kind of like "where the fuck did that come from!?!?".
Any ways, I hurt my back even worse today (just after it started getting better), I quit smoking and now have a horrid headache, my stomach is so upset (still) that I won't be able to eat tonight (fuckin great), I somehow managed to skin my entire elbow and now my favorite shirts all bloody.
On the good side I....well.....??? OH! There is a good side! I'm going fishing tonight (maybe) and now have a very good reason to get stoned on pain killers tomorrow (for all my talk of it I haven't touched 'em in a while).
Christ! My very fat neighbor upstairs is stumbling around. Sounds like a fucking elephant trying to stomp on a god damn mouse!
genevieve:
This not smoking thing is going as bad today as it did yesterday. Like I said, if I didn't flush 'em I'd end up smoking the rest of the pack, and I never got around to flushing it, so here I am smoking it.
I keep throwing mine in the trash...but i never seem to throw anything gross enough on top of them for me not to dig them out. (smoking one)
So how many of you have friends outside of SG that know you keep a journal online? I have one, but I'm sure she doesn't read it (re: the chronic liar). I'm debating whether to tell my girl. I'm about 99% sure I won't, just cause this is where I vent about stuff I don't want to vent to her about. We'll see
All of them know...i have like 4 friends...i like that i only have a few friends. Its so hard to have many many many friends. Maybe just for me. I get annoyed with people quickly...You should not tell your girl...that way i can shamelessly flirt with you...
Man, that chili is still kicking my ass. I'll be driving along and suddenly almost vomit. Like, it'll be up in my throat and everything and I'm kind of like "where the fuck did that come from!?!?".
Any ways, I hurt my back even worse today (just after it started getting better), I quit smoking and now have a horrid headache, my stomach is so upset (still) that I won't be able to eat tonight (fuckin great), I somehow managed to skin my entire elbow and now my favorite shirts all bloody.
See what quittin' gets ya?! that oughta learn ya boyyyyeee.
I keep throwing mine in the trash...but i never seem to throw anything gross enough on top of them for me not to dig them out. (smoking one)
So how many of you have friends outside of SG that know you keep a journal online? I have one, but I'm sure she doesn't read it (re: the chronic liar). I'm debating whether to tell my girl. I'm about 99% sure I won't, just cause this is where I vent about stuff I don't want to vent to her about. We'll see
All of them know...i have like 4 friends...i like that i only have a few friends. Its so hard to have many many many friends. Maybe just for me. I get annoyed with people quickly...You should not tell your girl...that way i can shamelessly flirt with you...
Man, that chili is still kicking my ass. I'll be driving along and suddenly almost vomit. Like, it'll be up in my throat and everything and I'm kind of like "where the fuck did that come from!?!?".
Any ways, I hurt my back even worse today (just after it started getting better), I quit smoking and now have a horrid headache, my stomach is so upset (still) that I won't be able to eat tonight (fuckin great), I somehow managed to skin my entire elbow and now my favorite shirts all bloody.
See what quittin' gets ya?! that oughta learn ya boyyyyeee.
Yeah, OK, so that whole "not smoking cigarettes anymore" thing lasted all of twenty-three minutes. Le sigh. Oh well, fuck it.
So, I'm in my bathroom doing my thing and flipping through my NIV Bible, and I come across a passage I have book marked in Revelations. This single passage is the foundation of the Jehovah's Witness faith.
Revelations 7:4
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So, I'm in my bathroom doing my thing and flipping through my NIV Bible, and I come across a passage I have book marked in Revelations. This single passage is the foundation of the Jehovah's Witness faith.
Revelations 7:4
"Then I heard the number...
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therealtexasguy:
Shit, the more I think about it, the more I realize I can't imagine going a day WITHOUT those phone calls and sporadic visits. This bitch has got a hold on me and it pisses me off! I hate not being able to control my emotions, I'm too much of a fucking control freak.
Le sigh. Guess this is one of those times I have to play out the hand dealt to me and see if I'm going to win all the chips on the table, or lose my shirt, huh?
I hate not being able to control my emotions, I'm too much of a fucking control freak.
Le sigh. Guess this is one of those times I have to play out the hand dealt to me and see if I'm going to win all the chips on the table, or lose my shirt, huh?
kybella:
Exactly. You think way too much. You are just like me in that perpective- very analytical. Good and bad character traits. Lets work on that...
You seriously crack me up. I always read what you write me like two or three times and everytime- you blow me away.... witty bastard
You seriously crack me up. I always read what you write me like two or three times and everytime- you blow me away.... witty bastard
Ohhhhh, my back! Actually, it's a little better today. Still, since I'm not going to smoke cigarettes anymore, I think I need to get stoned on pills so that A) my back don't hurt for a while and B) I don't freak out from lack of nicotine.
Bought Grand Thefta Auto 5: San Andreas. I now officially own all of them, from GTA to San...
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Bought Grand Thefta Auto 5: San Andreas. I now officially own all of them, from GTA to San...
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girly:
Do some laundry! 
I've never played any of the GTA games.
I've never played any of the GTA games.
Well, I just talked to the girl. Funny how even the scorn and anger of a good woman is beautiful. Either way, she's not too angry anymore. We'll see. I'm not getting my hopes up again any time soon. This being the usual rhythm of my life and all.
Wow. A funnel cloud. Doesn't that mean I'm supposed to go hide in my bathtub? I...
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Wow. A funnel cloud. Doesn't that mean I'm supposed to go hide in my bathtub? I...
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girly:
If I were there, I could probably help you find the mistake. 
Have you gone over all of your recods and jobs to make sure you accounted for everything?
Have you gone over all of your recods and jobs to make sure you accounted for everything?
therealtexasguy:
Christ, I feel like an old man. As I type, and as you read, I have an ICY HOT back patch on my back. I'll take any pill they give me, but there's just something about ointments and whatnot that bother me. Even my rarely used heat pad makes me feel odd. What's worse, is this fuckin' icy hot thing is actually helping. A lot. Damnit!
Yeah, three people went over everything (including the owner). The thing is, all it could be is that something was paid and the bank lost the record of it. Like a big check (I send out a lot of checks - just today I send out about three grand in checks). I'll have my old man look at it when he gets back into town. He's better with this shit then even the owner is cause he designed the system we use. Course, now I'm going to change it. It'll be more labor intensive my way, but every single penny will be explained. The owner is cool with not needing to know how everything is paid out, and I suppose I could be milking him for all kind of money, but I ain't like that. This is too good of a thing to do that, plus he's a good guy and I don't want to fuck him.
Thanks though.
And whereyouwanttobe, I'd love to meet up sometime for a drink or something. Ouch! That icy hot patch just got hella hot! Wow! Whoa...sorry. Like I said, I'd like that. More SA friends I could use right now.
Yeah, three people went over everything (including the owner). The thing is, all it could be is that something was paid and the bank lost the record of it. Like a big check (I send out a lot of checks - just today I send out about three grand in checks). I'll have my old man look at it when he gets back into town. He's better with this shit then even the owner is cause he designed the system we use. Course, now I'm going to change it. It'll be more labor intensive my way, but every single penny will be explained. The owner is cool with not needing to know how everything is paid out, and I suppose I could be milking him for all kind of money, but I ain't like that. This is too good of a thing to do that, plus he's a good guy and I don't want to fuck him.
Thanks though.
And whereyouwanttobe, I'd love to meet up sometime for a drink or something. Ouch! That icy hot patch just got hella hot! Wow! Whoa...sorry. Like I said, I'd like that. More SA friends I could use right now.