thera

this is the 3rd time i've written this, and each time i've deleted it.

i can't decide if i want to say what i really feel or just bullshit about other stuff.

so i'll bullshit.

one of my classes is such that the only boy in there is the teacher. i suppose its just a statistical fluke, since there's a lot more girls than guys in my department. so i don't know if this is good or bad yet. i think often girls don't really like me, usually. or i have trouble talking to them or relating to them, i dunno which it is. i'm shy. girls at school think i'm wierd, because i went to mudd beforehand and i like to talk about it and i like science. often times they'll second guess me and it fucking bugs the shit out of me.

actually, i changed my mind here. i don't ever want to meet someone who is just like me, because i will instantly see everything that is wrong with me. and i'm afraid of that, because its prolly too much.

i don't even know why i'm rambling right now.