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I'm burnt out.

I feel tired all the time, I worry about the stupidest things and right now I don't think I'm a lot of fun to be with. I'm sure I used to be funny both here and in real life but right now I cringe back at everything I say or write. I need a proper break from London but God alone knows when I'm going to get one.

I feel constantly irritated by people around me but I know that's unfair I'm just irritated with myself and projecting. I have such plans for the future but I wonder about my ability to cope with the present as an adult.

I just wish I could stop always feeling so tired.

Of course I know these feelings are temporary, you may not believe me but I'm tougher than I look and I'm very good at picking myself up and carrying on.

I always thought when i was younger that I would stop worrying, that was beautifully naive. I know now you never stop worrying, instead you learn to cope with the worrying, or you find a way to repress it.

I guess my mood has been showing a little recently as a couple of people have asked how I am and it's been noted that the majority of my journal entries have been fairly serious recently sorry if I've been a bit of a downer, I'm very (pathetically?) grateful for everyone's friendship and concern. Just remember I will cheer up and the future holds such interesting possibilities.

I have this picture as my desktop at the moment, it makes me smile:



This song is hitting a nerve right now: