theonetheonlydc

When Im happy, im supposed to be sad, when Im sad, im supposed to be happy. Im just so fucking stupid emotional sometimes. What the hell made me like this. I am happy with my life right. I like were I am at. Its just like I never feel accepted. Thats the root of my evil. Like this site for example. I love this site. The people are great but Ill never be one of them. I rejoined this site because of the community. I missed that most of all. I have all these ideas, and creative thoughts and I dont know how to share them. Its horrible. I thought here maybe I can honestly find some like minded indivuals, but I guess thats not the case. Sure, Ill get the usal bullshit I need post more, get myself out there, bla bla bla. I mean you guys really care what the hell I think? No. Does anyone in the real work really give a fuck what I think? No. Ill always be the quiet kid that no "really knows". I want to make a diffrence. I want to be part of this community, it just seems... I dont know. Im dumb.

edited to say wholey shit its the 6th. Didnt even realize my birthday is..... right now.