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thenextksmith

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Friday Jul 21, 2006

Jul 21, 2006
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Two very interesting things happened today.

The first was that I just finished reading Watchmen today. The book is amazing. It left me wondering what kind of a man I'd be if I had read that book when I first saw it at a friends house back in high school. How would I feel about the world? About man's place in this universe? I'm still a bit shell-shocked by it I guess but that's not really a surprise. I'm going to need to re-read it after I'm done with the other two books I'm working on (A Scanner Darkly and Brave New World (yes I know it's pathetic that I'm just now reading Brave New World but atleast I'm reading it.

The second interesting thing that happened was that Stephanie not only decided to start talking to me again but that she apologized to me for all the shit that she put me through way back when and she did it in a public forum no less.

For those of you who don't know my relationship with Steph (which would be all of you considering that I've never mentioned it,) I'll give a short synopsis.

I started dating a girl named Ana, her best friend was Steph. We met at about 8pm or so, and talked, literally, until the sun rose. Inseperable for about a year, there was never a moment we weren't thinking of each other.(I should clarify that we never dated. We were the best of friends and while we did hook up a few times we never had sex and never had a romantic relationship.)
Then, something just kind of snapped. She started dating a girl (she was bi-sexual) that was abusive around the same time that I was dating a girl that was not yet over her ex. The emotions of trying to console, protect and help each other when neither of us wanted help, ended up making us argue constantly. Many words were said, many times. For the next 6 months, we kept trying to salvage what we had but to no avail. We hated each other, both for good reason. We stopped talking to each other. She spread some rumours and slept with a few of my friends and took the rest of them from me. I buried myself in work, video games and the few true friends I had left.

Two years later she's apologize. Still insisting that she never lied but apologizing all the same. I'm at a complete loss as to how I should feel. I got over losing her as a friend a long time ago and have never really thought about trying to get her back. I've been happy these past few weeks. Making new friends, visiting new places, exploring everything physically and emotionally. But this...this I just don't know about.

Maybe I'll have some idea after this weekend. I'm going to a SG party up in Kissimmee, or I'm supposed to but a few people in my car have already dropped out of going, so that should clear my head.
If nothing else, I'll get really drunk, meet new people and see some boobs. And honestly, who doesn't love seeing a nice boob?

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