thenewpope

I feel like changing. I've realized that over the last few years I have become a person that I don't really like. I have become bitter and jaded and bitchy. I am really not all of those things. Okay, I am a little of all of those things...but that is not what defines me. As a child I was very empathetic and caring. In secret...when I'm alone in my head, I still feel that way. My heart is still open and full of love. But, on the outside I am hard and I don't care about anyone. I can be really hateful and short with people now...this makes me so sad. Things irritate me more than ever before. I am not saying that I will always love everyone and everything, but I really am going to try and not be so negative and gloomy. I want to be able to really appreciate the beautiful and good things about life and focus on that before going straight to what pisses me off. Okay, so here's to changing.


PS: This is some total hippy bullhonky, huh?