themadcaplaughs

A list of things I hate:

That I care
My Life
That I fail with girls
That people think I'm perfect
That people think I'm solid inside
That people try to comfort me with fake emotions
My job
That I hope... when I know it will fail
That I dream

So yeah... I'm pissed, angry, hurt... and scared absolutely shitless after spilling my guts to a girl I cared so much about... H. (as I've refered to her on here). Yeah... I'm a sap, a fool, an idot, a moron... so what... I cared... and I got screwed over... why me... *sigh*

I damaged my cell phone tonight after getting off the phone wiht her... I squeezed it so tight in my hand it cracked and it won't fold correctly now.

Ugh... I hate the fact that it seems I'm stronger than I appear.

I wish I was an inch high, could crawl into a hole, sleep for 1000 years and not worry about this.